Gay as a choice
I've always been attracted to females. At one point I thought seriously about transitioning to becoming a man (vanity was at play here because if i didn't have a big dick what's the point?) mind you I was young. I kissed girls had crushes on them, dreamed about them. I'll never forget Angie. My first girl crush she looked "older" haha.
Anyway, apart from the sexual abuse I was boy crazy at one point. Me ad Athena would go to sea world/skateland for the temporary boyfriends haha. I liked boys up until high school. In sophomore year I met echo who like most first loves was everything to me. Who made me horny and feel loved and broke me down with her "hey look I'm gonna cheat on u with all my friends and coworkers but you're gonna take me back" ness. Before all the gay marriages were even legal I knew I'd marry her. We lasted four years which is still regarded as a long time especially to people so young. I had a few boyfriends too Jason, Josh, Eddie... Never had sex with them never wanted too. But if I didn't have access to women I'd fuck a guy. *shrug*
I never got emotional with a guy in a serious way, I'd love them but not be in love with them. I wanted to be straight I wanted to will it to happen even experimented with sex with them. I never got off on it, it was boring because it was so stifling. Insert penis in mouth, vagina. Wowza! With women a least you can swap/use some imagination. It's like macgyver haha. It's probably my preference because I'm a lot more attracted to women and because (for the most part) it takes a lot more finesse to get a woman in bed repeatedly. Women need a reason, guys need a place lol. No one says shit about the girls I've had. If a girl had fucked as many dudes she'd be considered tainted. Fucked up but true.
When I read Cynthia Nixon say for her it was a choice she meant that she is split with her bisexuality equally (but she didn't want to call it that). It's annoying because I knew I liked girls even before I wanted to have sex with them. I just wanted to be around hem and hold their hands. It wasn't Because some guy knocked me around or broke my heart and I "became" a man hating lesbian. I never understood how that worked.
In prison you have to adapt so you can get protection or form bonds but if you're still out in the world keep dating guys WTF is wrong with you? If you're straight how you can you possibly eat pussy and enjoy it? Get the fuck outta here!
I do think it's a choice to acknowledge and act on those desires for the same sex. I do not think who you're attracted to is a choice at all, be that for drunk college girls to hasbians... Sexuality is a funny thing. I don't see why it needs to be regulated or defined by a government or interest group. People like things nice, neat and in a box with clear definitions but anything related to cum is gonna be sticky... Just saying.
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