25 things
this entry is inspired by all those "blah blah number of things you may not know about me on facebook" that has been going around. i really wasn't thinking of doing one, but when i just signed on now i saw that my cousin karel had tagged me in his. he wrote all this stuff about loving his wife and daughter more than anything in the world and how he has found god and whatnot. while i'm not sure how i feel about the god thing, the reason it really made me stop and think is because he is so incredibly different from the person he used to be. while he still has things about him that i think are kind of wack, it's crazy to see how much he's grown up from the prick he used to be.
so here are my 25 things. i'd rather do it here than on facebook simply because i know only a handful of people will read it here as opposed to the many more that probably would on facebook.
1. My biggest fear in life is losing my grandmother. I know nothing will ever be the same without her.
2. I wish I could sing at least half decent. I've always dreamed of being a singer or being on broadway or something to that effect. But I have a terrible voice and my crazy rendition of "Testify" won't be getting me too far.
3. Even though I complain about them, my family means more to me than anyone or anything.
4. I'm happy that I can count my really close friends on one hand and that I've known all of them for 8+ years.
5. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my career. I am terrified to graduate in just a few short months.
6. I feel like because I don't know what to do with my life that my parents are going to think I am a failure. That, more than my personal drive, is what's going to help me find a job.
7. I'm jealous of people with money. I know money doesn't buy happiness, but it helps buy a lot of things that would make me extremely happy.
8. I sometimes write entries on here and then delete them before I post them because I feel stupid or lame.
9. I have terrible cramps right now. I hope that the pill works better for my next period, because I still feel like shit.
10. Speaking of the pill, even though I take it regularly and pretty much at the same time everyday, I am ridiculously paranoid about getting pregnant. Even moreso than I was when I was using condoms, and the pill is supposed to have a better statistical success rate.
11. I can never make up my mind as to whether I love or hate Miami. Certain things and certain people make it appealing, but I hate almost everything else about it. It is a dirty ghetto with way too many "balsegradas" and I've never regretted leaving, even when I want to go back.
12. The only thing I genuinely care about is having children. I definitely do want a career, a husband, and lots of other things, but I could do without all of it if that meant having beautiful, healthy kids to raise. I want to be the best mother I can possibly be and give my kids all the things I never had.
13. I find most of the new people I meet stupid or annoying or boring. I hate people that are too nice. I hate people that are too fake. I hate people that are self righteous. I hate people that have lame interests. The older I get the more it takes to impress me. I sometimes wish I would criticize people less, but even if I didn't criticize certain people, I still would never be their friend.
14. I wish people would own up to their faults. I wish people would just openly say I'm a brat, i'm lazy, i'm mean, i'm spoiled, i'm dumb, i'm incompetent, i'm slow, i think i'm better than everyone, i'm a jerk, etc. You're not fooling anyone anyway.
15. I think of Andres everyday and how crazy he is and am scared of how he is going to grow up. God knows life is hard enough as it is.
16. It freaks me out that my autistic cousin is ghetto now and that he drinks and goes out with girls and stuff. I know he's 19 already, but I guess I always saw him as little Georgie who could name the day of the week for any date in the past century and who would clap obsessively. It's weird for me everytime I see him.
17. Tennison and I fell in love way too quickly and I'm scared one day it's going to come back to bite us in the ass. I know I can be mean to him, but I really love him and hope to never lose him.
18. Upon a second viewing, How I Met Your Mother is hands down my favorite show currently on TV, second favorite of all time probably only to Friends. Though seriously, it might be just as good.
19. I only watch Lost because everyone else does. It's not that I don't like it, it's just too much to keep up with. I used to like it a lot more, but too much stupid shit has happened that has pissed me off.
20. I've been going to the gym for a week now and I am sore beyond belief. I keep pushing myself because once I skip a class, it's all downhill from there. I'm doing kickboxing twice a week, yoga once a week, total body once a week, and hopefully cycling once a week now too.
21. I am still traumatized from being drunk on Thursday. I don't know why, but I've never taken more than like a day to recover from a bad night except for now. I hope it goes away before Grog tomorrow.
22. I promised myself I wouldn't drink beer until spring break. We're trying to go on a cruise and I want to try to look my best when that time comes.
23. Even though it's a complete enormous waste of money, I'm excited to get a class ring. I'll definitely wear my UF ring more than I ever would SW.
24. I go through my ups and downs but I am genuinely happy right now. I have a lot on my mind with school and graduation and jobs and such, but I feel like I've slowly learned to cope with stress at least somewhat.
25. I want to take a shower, go see my boyfriend, and pass out. I am exhausted out of my mind.
so here are my 25 things. i'd rather do it here than on facebook simply because i know only a handful of people will read it here as opposed to the many more that probably would on facebook.
1. My biggest fear in life is losing my grandmother. I know nothing will ever be the same without her.
2. I wish I could sing at least half decent. I've always dreamed of being a singer or being on broadway or something to that effect. But I have a terrible voice and my crazy rendition of "Testify" won't be getting me too far.
3. Even though I complain about them, my family means more to me than anyone or anything.
4. I'm happy that I can count my really close friends on one hand and that I've known all of them for 8+ years.
5. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my career. I am terrified to graduate in just a few short months.
6. I feel like because I don't know what to do with my life that my parents are going to think I am a failure. That, more than my personal drive, is what's going to help me find a job.
7. I'm jealous of people with money. I know money doesn't buy happiness, but it helps buy a lot of things that would make me extremely happy.
8. I sometimes write entries on here and then delete them before I post them because I feel stupid or lame.
9. I have terrible cramps right now. I hope that the pill works better for my next period, because I still feel like shit.
10. Speaking of the pill, even though I take it regularly and pretty much at the same time everyday, I am ridiculously paranoid about getting pregnant. Even moreso than I was when I was using condoms, and the pill is supposed to have a better statistical success rate.
11. I can never make up my mind as to whether I love or hate Miami. Certain things and certain people make it appealing, but I hate almost everything else about it. It is a dirty ghetto with way too many "balsegradas" and I've never regretted leaving, even when I want to go back.
12. The only thing I genuinely care about is having children. I definitely do want a career, a husband, and lots of other things, but I could do without all of it if that meant having beautiful, healthy kids to raise. I want to be the best mother I can possibly be and give my kids all the things I never had.
13. I find most of the new people I meet stupid or annoying or boring. I hate people that are too nice. I hate people that are too fake. I hate people that are self righteous. I hate people that have lame interests. The older I get the more it takes to impress me. I sometimes wish I would criticize people less, but even if I didn't criticize certain people, I still would never be their friend.
14. I wish people would own up to their faults. I wish people would just openly say I'm a brat, i'm lazy, i'm mean, i'm spoiled, i'm dumb, i'm incompetent, i'm slow, i think i'm better than everyone, i'm a jerk, etc. You're not fooling anyone anyway.
15. I think of Andres everyday and how crazy he is and am scared of how he is going to grow up. God knows life is hard enough as it is.
16. It freaks me out that my autistic cousin is ghetto now and that he drinks and goes out with girls and stuff. I know he's 19 already, but I guess I always saw him as little Georgie who could name the day of the week for any date in the past century and who would clap obsessively. It's weird for me everytime I see him.
17. Tennison and I fell in love way too quickly and I'm scared one day it's going to come back to bite us in the ass. I know I can be mean to him, but I really love him and hope to never lose him.
18. Upon a second viewing, How I Met Your Mother is hands down my favorite show currently on TV, second favorite of all time probably only to Friends. Though seriously, it might be just as good.
19. I only watch Lost because everyone else does. It's not that I don't like it, it's just too much to keep up with. I used to like it a lot more, but too much stupid shit has happened that has pissed me off.
20. I've been going to the gym for a week now and I am sore beyond belief. I keep pushing myself because once I skip a class, it's all downhill from there. I'm doing kickboxing twice a week, yoga once a week, total body once a week, and hopefully cycling once a week now too.
21. I am still traumatized from being drunk on Thursday. I don't know why, but I've never taken more than like a day to recover from a bad night except for now. I hope it goes away before Grog tomorrow.
22. I promised myself I wouldn't drink beer until spring break. We're trying to go on a cruise and I want to try to look my best when that time comes.
23. Even though it's a complete enormous waste of money, I'm excited to get a class ring. I'll definitely wear my UF ring more than I ever would SW.
24. I go through my ups and downs but I am genuinely happy right now. I have a lot on my mind with school and graduation and jobs and such, but I feel like I've slowly learned to cope with stress at least somewhat.
25. I want to take a shower, go see my boyfriend, and pass out. I am exhausted out of my mind.