I'm having an epiphany?
I read Kelly's comment and I think out of all the times she's never commented, it totally makes up for it. I was always upset to see her comment on Tiffany's journals when I thought there was no point to any of her entries or Kell's comments, but it's all ok now. Her comment rung true to me, it was amazing. Everything she said was everything I've always wanted to hear. And the date raping of Growler: classic.
I was so happy to hear from her last night. Which is amazing b/c I haven't really been happy lately. But I think it's because I've finally been taking my medicine for more than a day. I noticed towards the end of Nutcracker I was losing it, but I'm more welcoming on the medicine. I don't have as many ups and downs which I guess being bipolar is all about. I really wish Kelly would get some help and get some medicine b/c trust me it works miracles. I guess I only went for it b/c Vincent suggested it. I guess that's really the only reason why. But he was right, you feel so much better. And it's so much more easier to have things in order. I just think of the amazing things Kelly could be if she didn't have to go through what she does. And having sessions with your parents helps a lot. My mom and I are closer to where we used to be. Things are really good. And I'm glad we're getting all this shit out of the way before I'm off to college. But maybe Kell's parents still don't get it b/c they never tried to. I mean, my parents were in total denial until a month into my therapy. I think if Kell tried to get things through to her parents things would be so much better. But you do kind of need a mediator between you too. Maybe she'll give it a shot? Maybe not. But therapy really does work wonders. Finding the right shrink, the right meds, and then you're set. That's it.
I was so happy to hear from her last night. Which is amazing b/c I haven't really been happy lately. But I think it's because I've finally been taking my medicine for more than a day. I noticed towards the end of Nutcracker I was losing it, but I'm more welcoming on the medicine. I don't have as many ups and downs which I guess being bipolar is all about. I really wish Kelly would get some help and get some medicine b/c trust me it works miracles. I guess I only went for it b/c Vincent suggested it. I guess that's really the only reason why. But he was right, you feel so much better. And it's so much more easier to have things in order. I just think of the amazing things Kelly could be if she didn't have to go through what she does. And having sessions with your parents helps a lot. My mom and I are closer to where we used to be. Things are really good. And I'm glad we're getting all this shit out of the way before I'm off to college. But maybe Kell's parents still don't get it b/c they never tried to. I mean, my parents were in total denial until a month into my therapy. I think if Kell tried to get things through to her parents things would be so much better. But you do kind of need a mediator between you too. Maybe she'll give it a shot? Maybe not. But therapy really does work wonders. Finding the right shrink, the right meds, and then you're set. That's it.