You know what...

[sleazy_d]

I really do hate my life
I can't even stand to look at myself in the mirror anymore
I've always been this way
You guys just never realized it
I have nothing to hold on to anymore
I feel so empty...
There's nothing to look forward to in my life
We're all sheep marching toward our own deaths
Fuck this shit, Fuck all this shit
So much for going back to work
I don't know if I'll be able to finish out the week

This is the real me...
The one you guys got to know was a lie
I should get an Oscar
I've been like this for as long as I can remember
Double lives suck

It has gotten so bad I can't even bring myself to do homework
Not one single thing has made me happy
I've been sitting here trying to think of something
But nothing has come up

Well I'm done writing this long entry
Hope you guys enjoy your lives
Just know I haven't enjoyed mine...

"I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Tried to kill it all away
But I remember...
Nothing"