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Today is the first time in however long it has been that I have felt something. Sadness and loneliness, but still, I am feeling something. It feels bad and hurts, but I am "happy" to be feeling something again..... happy is the wrong word..... I am grateful to be feeling SOMETHING again.
Yesterday was not a good day to start with. I missed ALL my classes, and almost missed Theater. I made it almost at the end of class so I was able to do my final scene with Kade. I was awful. I missed my lines everywhere throughout the entire scene. We held it almost together, but I felt so bad that I did such a poor job with my lines. It was just so flustered that it didn't work well.
Went to see The Forgotten Carols in the evening. I bawled the entire way through. I kept trying to hold back because I didn't want to be all red faced and terrible during the intermission, then again at the end. I am going to watch the DVD again though. I want to just get that cry out that I has been held inside me for so long.
Yesterday was not a good day to start with. I missed ALL my classes, and almost missed Theater. I made it almost at the end of class so I was able to do my final scene with Kade. I was awful. I missed my lines everywhere throughout the entire scene. We held it almost together, but I felt so bad that I did such a poor job with my lines. It was just so flustered that it didn't work well.
Went to see The Forgotten Carols in the evening. I bawled the entire way through. I kept trying to hold back because I didn't want to be all red faced and terrible during the intermission, then again at the end. I am going to watch the DVD again though. I want to just get that cry out that I has been held inside me for so long.