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So I was going to post last night but I couldn't get what i was thinking of saying down. I was without water all day yesterday and my landlord was in the apartment working on it. I really hate it when people are in my personal space, and looking back, that may have been a part of my foul mood. I know that I can't blame it all on that, as I have been in a funk for a bit. I know that it is way past time for me to move on, and I have made plans to do so, but at the same time, there are times that I am not sure if i want to leave, if i am ready to leave, or if i am strong enough.
I need to snap out of it though, and get on. To stop bothering others with my petty problems and deal with my inscurties on my own. I know that when the time comes I will be ready to go, and in truth I am now. I just am able to realize that as much as I feel suffocated here there are a lot of things that I love that I will be leaving behind. AS much as I complain about my job, i know that I will really miss the people that I work with and what i am doing, what i wont miss is the chaos that comes with it. I will miss being in the 'wilderness', being able to be in the outdoors. I suppose that is something that I will still be able to get to though, it just wont be right outside my door. We shall see what happens when the time come tho. Well time for me to do some real work.
I need to snap out of it though, and get on. To stop bothering others with my petty problems and deal with my inscurties on my own. I know that when the time comes I will be ready to go, and in truth I am now. I just am able to realize that as much as I feel suffocated here there are a lot of things that I love that I will be leaving behind. AS much as I complain about my job, i know that I will really miss the people that I work with and what i am doing, what i wont miss is the chaos that comes with it. I will miss being in the 'wilderness', being able to be in the outdoors. I suppose that is something that I will still be able to get to though, it just wont be right outside my door. We shall see what happens when the time come tho. Well time for me to do some real work.