Athena's time - Friday, 03/14/08 @ 9:30 am CDT
Well, talked to the regular vet yesterday, turns out Friday will be better for all of us (was going to be Wednesday), and I'm glad for that, because if they'd have done it Wednesday, I wouldn't have had any time to spend with her as their office closes at noon and they would have come to the house AFTER closing, so they'd have had to take her with them. I really didn't want that. So maybe that's my miracle.
My friend Stacy came over last night to meet her and Athena loved her so much!!!! She wanted to be around us ... she even got up and walked to wherever we were (outside/inside). It made it all that much sadder knowing that except for this horrible growth on her she's still so full of love and life, but she's in so much pain.
By them coming on Friday, I'll be able to spend the day with her, let her brother, Perseus, sniff her and hang with her so he understands. He's going to be so lost without her, I can't even go into explaining that.
This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. My heart breaks every time I look at her. I'm glad we had 10 wonderful years together.
Post from Sunday, 03/09/08:
New date is Friday, 03/14/08, at 9:30 am CDT.
Well, it would seem that Wednesday, 3/12/08, may be the day she is relieved of the pain of her tormented body.
Saw the holistic vet Saturday (03/07/08) and she pretty much agreed that it's time. Many reasons, but she mostly just lays. Not interested in playing even a tiny game of ball indoors. She refuses to use the ramp to come in, but today she tripped up over the steps and i had to go rescue her.
Her muscles are so weak and that monster on her side is not getting any smaller. The regular vet's office will call me on Monday to make sure that's the day (they work till noon that day, so he could come out afterwards). But I don't know if they'll let me keep her for a few hours to mourn and then have someone meet me at the vet place with her body later that afternoon. I will definitely need some time with her afterwards, so it depends on that.
The crappy thing is I have to go to work on Tuesday. Into the office. I work from home Monday, then am off Wednesday thru rest of week. And I have to cover for someone on Tuesday as well. Maybe it'll keep my mind off of it, I don't know.
I've been praying for a miracle that the lump would have shrunk overnight or be gone completely.
Why can't she have a miracle?
Oh, my heart is ripped to shreds. It's unbearable.
My friend Stacy came over last night to meet her and Athena loved her so much!!!! She wanted to be around us ... she even got up and walked to wherever we were (outside/inside). It made it all that much sadder knowing that except for this horrible growth on her she's still so full of love and life, but she's in so much pain.
By them coming on Friday, I'll be able to spend the day with her, let her brother, Perseus, sniff her and hang with her so he understands. He's going to be so lost without her, I can't even go into explaining that.
This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. My heart breaks every time I look at her. I'm glad we had 10 wonderful years together.
Post from Sunday, 03/09/08:
New date is Friday, 03/14/08, at 9:30 am CDT.
Well, it would seem that Wednesday, 3/12/08, may be the day she is relieved of the pain of her tormented body.
Saw the holistic vet Saturday (03/07/08) and she pretty much agreed that it's time. Many reasons, but she mostly just lays. Not interested in playing even a tiny game of ball indoors. She refuses to use the ramp to come in, but today she tripped up over the steps and i had to go rescue her.
Her muscles are so weak and that monster on her side is not getting any smaller. The regular vet's office will call me on Monday to make sure that's the day (they work till noon that day, so he could come out afterwards). But I don't know if they'll let me keep her for a few hours to mourn and then have someone meet me at the vet place with her body later that afternoon. I will definitely need some time with her afterwards, so it depends on that.
The crappy thing is I have to go to work on Tuesday. Into the office. I work from home Monday, then am off Wednesday thru rest of week. And I have to cover for someone on Tuesday as well. Maybe it'll keep my mind off of it, I don't know.
I've been praying for a miracle that the lump would have shrunk overnight or be gone completely.
Why can't she have a miracle?
Oh, my heart is ripped to shreds. It's unbearable.