Day #8
Yesterday was a pretty ruff day. Or at least around the time I wrote my last journal entry. I was so damn depressed and hopeless. I really felt I was going to just give up.
But then things changed. I went to Lindsey's and had alcohol free fun. Between making homemade videos, MSCL DVDS and laughter I was okay. We ended up going out last night and I didnt have a drop of alcohol. I was so proud of myself. Last night made me realize I don't need to drink to have fun. I can go out and still have a good time. It gave me new found confidence and made me believe in myself. I know I can do this. I am bigger then this problem. In the end I will come up on top.
I like to think that this whole drinking problem is an obstical to get through to the part of my life. I didn't always make the right choices when it came to drinking. But thats over now. I am taking the lessons learned and moving on with my life. I may not be nieve and innocent anymore but I am defiantly a lot smarter about life now. And now I know
I write my own destiny!!!
But then things changed. I went to Lindsey's and had alcohol free fun. Between making homemade videos, MSCL DVDS and laughter I was okay. We ended up going out last night and I didnt have a drop of alcohol. I was so proud of myself. Last night made me realize I don't need to drink to have fun. I can go out and still have a good time. It gave me new found confidence and made me believe in myself. I know I can do this. I am bigger then this problem. In the end I will come up on top.
I like to think that this whole drinking problem is an obstical to get through to the part of my life. I didn't always make the right choices when it came to drinking. But thats over now. I am taking the lessons learned and moving on with my life. I may not be nieve and innocent anymore but I am defiantly a lot smarter about life now. And now I know
I write my own destiny!!!