This is not going to be easy
So I know I have been writing entries a lot saying I am done with drinking. And I really want to mean it. The thinking with breaking bad habits is there not easy to break. I really do want to drink again tonight. It's defiantly going to be a long road because I am giving up something that took up a big chunk of my life. Thinking about never drinking again is very scary because it seems impossible. I know if I stay strong and don't give into temptation I can do it. But right now it doesnt seem real. I think a lot of it is because I just quite drinking. Its only been 5 days which isnt along time. But I know with time it will get easier. Just right now it seems so hard. I figure talking to the counseler tomorrow will help me stay on my path.
Usually on the weekends I go out. I get drunk and have fun with my friends. I feel so lost with this weekend. What do I do if I don't drink??? I suppose now is where I will get in touch with sober self. I basically plan on taking it easy, doing some homework, cleaning and having sober time with Lindsey. We were thinking about going bowling or playing cards.
One a positive note I read my horoscope today and it basically said I could do it. SO that gives me some encouragement.
Oh and I just realized that I leave for Europe in 21 days. Thats pretty crazy. I really hope my refund check clears duing that time. If not I am going there with only about $600 dollars. Which isnt alot at all. Either way its going to be nice seeing Nurangiz and Stephanie. Hopefully I will get to see Fotini. The flight there is going to be hell. I am going to be in NYC for like 9 hours waiting for my plane.
Btw Telly's class is ruining my life. I have a 25 page paper due next thursday. This paper is harder then I thought it was. Not to mention as soon as I get this paper done I have to start working on my 70 page paper. Oh the joys of being a senior business major.
Usually on the weekends I go out. I get drunk and have fun with my friends. I feel so lost with this weekend. What do I do if I don't drink??? I suppose now is where I will get in touch with sober self. I basically plan on taking it easy, doing some homework, cleaning and having sober time with Lindsey. We were thinking about going bowling or playing cards.
One a positive note I read my horoscope today and it basically said I could do it. SO that gives me some encouragement.
Oh and I just realized that I leave for Europe in 21 days. Thats pretty crazy. I really hope my refund check clears duing that time. If not I am going there with only about $600 dollars. Which isnt alot at all. Either way its going to be nice seeing Nurangiz and Stephanie. Hopefully I will get to see Fotini. The flight there is going to be hell. I am going to be in NYC for like 9 hours waiting for my plane.
Btw Telly's class is ruining my life. I have a 25 page paper due next thursday. This paper is harder then I thought it was. Not to mention as soon as I get this paper done I have to start working on my 70 page paper. Oh the joys of being a senior business major.