pins and needles
i had my visit to the docs for accupuncture today, was like the first time, uberemotional release then came home and crashed out for 4 hours. i slept like the proverbial baby but had the trippiest dreams (in a good way). i woke up sort of refreshed but sort of groggy.
Alex called and said He was going to come over. He saw how i was last week and decided He needed to be here with me this week. He's lovely, i'm trying so hard to fight the "run away" urges, and i know He sees and feels my panic over how well He's reading me.
We had a talk about what happened last night and about my punishment and what i'd learnt from it.... which was to never tell my Dom i was horny unless He had directly asked for a report on that status *rolls his eyes at his own stupidity*. i raised the brat issue.. the "how do You feel about the fact that i can be a brat sometimes?". He was amused by what i said. He told me that i will learn as i get to know Him when and when not to let the brat out, and how far i can take it. hmm i know this one... if i end up punished then i went to far. lol. He said the important thing is that He knows i have that in me and and He accepts it otherwise He wouldnt have chosen me. ... He "chose me".. when He said that my stomach flipped.. and it felt soooooo good. i feel special... i've been chosen... more to the point... He said He was honoured that i was choosing to let Him in. *smiles happily*
We then spent the rest of the evening cuddling and caressing... He gave me a foot massage which was a little wierd on account of the not having any feeling there thing. but emotionally it was wonderful, i felt pampered.
interesting day.
Alex called and said He was going to come over. He saw how i was last week and decided He needed to be here with me this week. He's lovely, i'm trying so hard to fight the "run away" urges, and i know He sees and feels my panic over how well He's reading me.
We had a talk about what happened last night and about my punishment and what i'd learnt from it.... which was to never tell my Dom i was horny unless He had directly asked for a report on that status *rolls his eyes at his own stupidity*. i raised the brat issue.. the "how do You feel about the fact that i can be a brat sometimes?". He was amused by what i said. He told me that i will learn as i get to know Him when and when not to let the brat out, and how far i can take it. hmm i know this one... if i end up punished then i went to far. lol. He said the important thing is that He knows i have that in me and and He accepts it otherwise He wouldnt have chosen me. ... He "chose me".. when He said that my stomach flipped.. and it felt soooooo good. i feel special... i've been chosen... more to the point... He said He was honoured that i was choosing to let Him in. *smiles happily*
We then spent the rest of the evening cuddling and caressing... He gave me a foot massage which was a little wierd on account of the not having any feeling there thing. but emotionally it was wonderful, i felt pampered.
interesting day.