Oh yeah, I'm still alive.
Sorry for the long silence...real life has very much been a bitch for me lately. Lately meaning...well, several months now. I won't go into the specifics...I'm not the kind of person to bitch about my personal life on the intertubes...but I'll say that it sucks, it's terribly trying, and it's made me want to write fanfic about as much as I want to stick my balls between a steam-powered atomic cymbal-monkey's hands.
...in case anyone seeks clarification, that's "zero much".
Anyhow, I'm fine. Fine enough, anyway. No, nobody's died, nobody's sick, the house didn't burn down or anything, blah blah blah, so don't worry yourselves about that. It's just something I've had to get through myself...hell, I barely spoke about it to most of my close friends, and even then I didn't let myself talk too much about it. I tend to keep problems to myself rather than ramble/bore/force my burdens upon others.
So yeah, my point is that I've barely written anything in a good while, which is not really typical for me---even though my updates are always slow, I'm almost always writing, at least a little, so a cold spell like this isn't typical for me. But I've upswing'ed to the point that I think I can write again, though it might be a good while longer before I put out anything for others to read.
Wow, I do like avoiding the point, huh? Alright, here's the scoop: I have thrown out the entirety of what I had for chapter 32 of Sinners, as well as the Flannery oneshot I was working on. Reading over what little I'd written with a clear head made me disappointed, so I chucked it. This might disappoint some people, especially the swell person I'm specifically writing the oneshot for, but trust me, it was garbage (ED: "isn't it always?", haha). I'm going to be trying to start them both back up...but to be honest, it'll be a while. I don't know how it's going to work out...I might lose myself in my writing (a good thing), or write a few thousand words and realize that the spark isn't there. Hopefully it'll work, because I miss writing. I miss continuing the story and advancing the little world I've created, insomuch as a fanfic writer can be said to create the world in question. Also the person who I'm writing the oneshot for has been waiting a long time, and I feel very guilty for, well, sucking so much.
Other notes:
1. I might delete the side-story Janus. In fact, I probably will. Firstly, I never really felt too into it. Secondly, Janus's role in Sinners is swiftly changing from what I originally planned. Lastly, I think that I could re-write it a lot better than it is now, if I re-write it at all.
2. As sucky as it is, considering how infrequent the updates have been, I still intend to re-write Arc 1 (and likely a good deal of Arc 2) once I finish Arc 2. I want to clean it up grammatically, make things more detailed/fluid, get rid of stupid/unnecessary crap, establish set conventions for dialogue (particularly telepathic speech and getting rid of those fucking italics), etc etc. Arc 2 won't end for another few chapters at least, but just so everyone has warning.
I guess that's it for now. tl;dr version: I've been dealing with too much shit to write lately, but that shit's starting to go away, and I might even have a chapter out before winter ends if everything goes well...maybe even the oneshot. But I can't promise anything other than that I'll try.
So yeah, thanks for your patience (or impatience), and I'll be around.
...in case anyone seeks clarification, that's "zero much".
Anyhow, I'm fine. Fine enough, anyway. No, nobody's died, nobody's sick, the house didn't burn down or anything, blah blah blah, so don't worry yourselves about that. It's just something I've had to get through myself...hell, I barely spoke about it to most of my close friends, and even then I didn't let myself talk too much about it. I tend to keep problems to myself rather than ramble/bore/force my burdens upon others.
So yeah, my point is that I've barely written anything in a good while, which is not really typical for me---even though my updates are always slow, I'm almost always writing, at least a little, so a cold spell like this isn't typical for me. But I've upswing'ed to the point that I think I can write again, though it might be a good while longer before I put out anything for others to read.
Wow, I do like avoiding the point, huh? Alright, here's the scoop: I have thrown out the entirety of what I had for chapter 32 of Sinners, as well as the Flannery oneshot I was working on. Reading over what little I'd written with a clear head made me disappointed, so I chucked it. This might disappoint some people, especially the swell person I'm specifically writing the oneshot for, but trust me, it was garbage (ED: "isn't it always?", haha). I'm going to be trying to start them both back up...but to be honest, it'll be a while. I don't know how it's going to work out...I might lose myself in my writing (a good thing), or write a few thousand words and realize that the spark isn't there. Hopefully it'll work, because I miss writing. I miss continuing the story and advancing the little world I've created, insomuch as a fanfic writer can be said to create the world in question. Also the person who I'm writing the oneshot for has been waiting a long time, and I feel very guilty for, well, sucking so much.
Other notes:
1. I might delete the side-story Janus. In fact, I probably will. Firstly, I never really felt too into it. Secondly, Janus's role in Sinners is swiftly changing from what I originally planned. Lastly, I think that I could re-write it a lot better than it is now, if I re-write it at all.
2. As sucky as it is, considering how infrequent the updates have been, I still intend to re-write Arc 1 (and likely a good deal of Arc 2) once I finish Arc 2. I want to clean it up grammatically, make things more detailed/fluid, get rid of stupid/unnecessary crap, establish set conventions for dialogue (particularly telepathic speech and getting rid of those fucking italics), etc etc. Arc 2 won't end for another few chapters at least, but just so everyone has warning.
I guess that's it for now. tl;dr version: I've been dealing with too much shit to write lately, but that shit's starting to go away, and I might even have a chapter out before winter ends if everything goes well...maybe even the oneshot. But I can't promise anything other than that I'll try.
So yeah, thanks for your patience (or impatience), and I'll be around.