Taking a break.
Have recovered from massive panic attack last night after
g_esquared and I exchanged a series of desperate emails and penguinaffair talked me down from the edge. Calling Wei Qing and rambling at her about Lit with words that quite conceivably made no sense at all also helped. Kamsir's reply to my frantic email was the final thing that banished the lingering vestiges of my freakout. - that, and the departure of caffeine from my system, I think.
Related: My automatic headache reaction to coffee seems to have gone away, in exchange for emotional instability; I can't decide which is more desirable.
I am flist-stalking behindthec I am such a terrible person, really. (Just in case you are wondering, no he is no one we know/in Singapore.) This is the reason why:
sophie and i were talking to him on speakerphone, laughing and bonding (his voice goes all gay and high-pitched when he exclaims over her accent, OH MY GOD SO CUTE), and i complained to him about how everyone around me always knows when i'm texting him because i get this goofy ridiculous smile on my face.
halfway through dinner with sophie (at this sweet tapas place by the hotel, you should go), he texts me:
Try not to smile, though you are very beautiful when you do.
...my FUCKING. HEART.
naturally i couldn't stop smiling the whole meal. i told him to stop making me fall for him, dickface, and he replied, Can't help but bring someone down with me.
I really think that's adorable, and it's also pretty complicated, and THIS IS PROBABLY AN INVASION OF PRIVACY ): so I will stop talking about it now - but really, that is a fic-worthy line. Oh, love~
!Update on EYA revision progress:
Lit 80%
Bio 85%
History 70%
Chem 0% (have not changed since last check; probably -10% if you count my freak out over the Organic Chemistry demystified book)
Math 50% (have not changed since last check)
I am not as prepared as I can be, quite obviously, but I am not unprepared, either.
I actually had a lot of facepalm moments during notes making - case in point: I typed, Britain asked USA out under my post-war points for a while before I reread what I wrote. Also, doing a bio question on horned cattle and hornless cattle, I wrote, H: allele for horniness before I went !! WTF BRAIN.
This made me a little sad. The two Americas aren't mutually exclusive, though, I don't think.
Okay I just remembered I have red areas of my bio notes I need to go add to, particularly the genetic engineering arguments etc. etc. and then I should look over my lit notes again for final revision tomorrow, so off I go.
g_esquared and I exchanged a series of desperate emails and penguinaffair talked me down from the edge. Calling Wei Qing and rambling at her about Lit with words that quite conceivably made no sense at all also helped. Kamsir's reply to my frantic email was the final thing that banished the lingering vestiges of my freakout. - that, and the departure of caffeine from my system, I think.
Related: My automatic headache reaction to coffee seems to have gone away, in exchange for emotional instability; I can't decide which is more desirable.
I am flist-stalking behindthec I am such a terrible person, really. (Just in case you are wondering, no he is no one we know/in Singapore.) This is the reason why:
sophie and i were talking to him on speakerphone, laughing and bonding (his voice goes all gay and high-pitched when he exclaims over her accent, OH MY GOD SO CUTE), and i complained to him about how everyone around me always knows when i'm texting him because i get this goofy ridiculous smile on my face.
halfway through dinner with sophie (at this sweet tapas place by the hotel, you should go), he texts me:
Try not to smile, though you are very beautiful when you do.
...my FUCKING. HEART.
naturally i couldn't stop smiling the whole meal. i told him to stop making me fall for him, dickface, and he replied, Can't help but bring someone down with me.
I really think that's adorable, and it's also pretty complicated, and THIS IS PROBABLY AN INVASION OF PRIVACY ): so I will stop talking about it now - but really, that is a fic-worthy line. Oh, love~
!Update on EYA revision progress:
Lit 80%
Bio 85%
History 70%
Chem 0% (have not changed since last check; probably -10% if you count my freak out over the Organic Chemistry demystified book)
Math 50% (have not changed since last check)
I am not as prepared as I can be, quite obviously, but I am not unprepared, either.
I actually had a lot of facepalm moments during notes making - case in point: I typed, Britain asked USA out under my post-war points for a while before I reread what I wrote. Also, doing a bio question on horned cattle and hornless cattle, I wrote, H: allele for horniness before I went !! WTF BRAIN.
This made me a little sad. The two Americas aren't mutually exclusive, though, I don't think.
Okay I just remembered I have red areas of my bio notes I need to go add to, particularly the genetic engineering arguments etc. etc. and then I should look over my lit notes again for final revision tomorrow, so off I go.