truer words have never been
"Just go with your gut," says Jeff. "And remember--I know it feels like the end of the world, but it's high school. Everything feels like the end of the fucking world."
- taken from a highschool! AU fic, untitled, I think.
I am not feeling so hot right now. Trying to write comment!fic which has stalled at some place, and looking at the insanely stupid schedule for the next two weeks and I am so, so tempted to just skip them entirely but the only thing stopping me is that these are the last two weeks I am going to spend with 415 and everyone I have grown to know and like and love in RGS the past four years.
Simultaneously, the prospect of a future that's entirely different is startling and frightening and exhilarating.
On opening night, Joanna, my senior three years older (chairperson of ELDS when I was just a Sec One) actually came down to wish us luck, and she's in university now, and she told us that two of our seniors had left for overseas, and some of the rest are studying with her in NUS. It's pretty inexplicable and disorienting to know that the ones who'd been Sec Four when I was Sec One are now in university, and now we're Sec Four, and four years from now, our Sec 1s would be Sec Fours and we'll, I'll be in university too. Life takes us so far away and so fast from the present.
I was reading my senior's LJ ( this post, in particularly) on a whim just now, and - she writes beautifully.
Taking the long-distance view of life, all these petty little grievances and heartaches matter little, but we live life not by grand ideals but each individual day and moment.
(I find it hilarious how the first Chinese book I pick up in five, maybe more, years is a literary work about mathematicians, complete with mathematical theories and details. MLIA, or FML? It took me about three chapters to decide that it was fiction.)
So many things I want to do right now but nothing is getting done.
- taken from a highschool! AU fic, untitled, I think.
I am not feeling so hot right now. Trying to write comment!fic which has stalled at some place, and looking at the insanely stupid schedule for the next two weeks and I am so, so tempted to just skip them entirely but the only thing stopping me is that these are the last two weeks I am going to spend with 415 and everyone I have grown to know and like and love in RGS the past four years.
Simultaneously, the prospect of a future that's entirely different is startling and frightening and exhilarating.
On opening night, Joanna, my senior three years older (chairperson of ELDS when I was just a Sec One) actually came down to wish us luck, and she's in university now, and she told us that two of our seniors had left for overseas, and some of the rest are studying with her in NUS. It's pretty inexplicable and disorienting to know that the ones who'd been Sec Four when I was Sec One are now in university, and now we're Sec Four, and four years from now, our Sec 1s would be Sec Fours and we'll, I'll be in university too. Life takes us so far away and so fast from the present.
I was reading my senior's LJ ( this post, in particularly) on a whim just now, and - she writes beautifully.
Taking the long-distance view of life, all these petty little grievances and heartaches matter little, but we live life not by grand ideals but each individual day and moment.
(I find it hilarious how the first Chinese book I pick up in five, maybe more, years is a literary work about mathematicians, complete with mathematical theories and details. MLIA, or FML? It took me about three chapters to decide that it was fiction.)
So many things I want to do right now but nothing is getting done.