dreams are illegal in the ghetto.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HAkEAS9vKw8&feature=related
(related to the link of the poetry slam video Nancy linked our class.)
Today was a good day, in most senses of the word. The most overwhelming event was the recovering of my library book, which - my feelings immediately felt lighter the moment I found it (on the class trays near the photocopier, oh dear). If you haven't lost a library book or even a wallet or something that you would really not want to lose before, you wouldn't know how it feels. It just weighs on your mind, and even if you're distracted by something immediate momentarily, your mind always goes back to it.
After that, rehearsals went exceedingly well. I had mocha in the morning to keep me awake during rehearsal, and it kicked it pretty fast. I started going a little nuts (LIKE I WAS ON CRACK, OR SOMETHING) after lunch, after I found my book and was probably giddy with relief and also high on caffeine (my batchmates are forbidding me from ever drinking coffee before rehearsals again) and there were great moments of hilarity.
Technically, we are better than we were yesterday. We might actually be able to do this in a week. I HAVEN'T ACTUALLY STARTED WORRYING ABOUT IT FALLING FLAT, OKAY? I HAVEN'T. I WILL. I WILL, I SWEAR. THE NIGHT. THE DAY BEFORE. I WILL PUKE. WHAT IS THIS. /freaks out.
(From one angle, there are flaws in the script, and from another, gaping loopholes AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT but from yet another angle, it's - acceptable BUT IS THAT WHAT I'M GOING FOR?)
I was thinking abut two things when I was walking to the bus stop after CCA today. I was contemplating how finding my lost library book instantly brightened my mood constantly, and I become alternately perky and maniacal after that, and it's - also given me the impetus to actually! commence my EE, which may imply that I have subconsciously not done it because of the book, or may also mean that I'm just using the lost library book as a retroactive excuse for my procrastination. I don't know. But would not-finding the book have meant a worse rehearsal? A worse EE? Would - not-losing the book in the first place mean a worse rehearsal (which might possibly affect all the subsequent rehearsals and then the production itself) but a better EE? Or - does it not matter at all?
Little links make up the chains that bind us.
Secondly, my batch is having a lot of fun during rehearsals. We are laughing as we have never laughed before, talking as we haven't (and oddly enough, when we aren't talking about production, we - don't really have a lot to say to each other, although a few of us were talking about boys and r/ships at Far East today) before, and we dissolve into fits of laughter frequently during the rehearsals. On a minor note, I can't help thinking that if only we had our usual schedule, if we were going up on the 27th and 28th of November instead, how much better and easier a time we would have - yet, I was noticing, the few juniors that sat through the rehearsals had a lot of fun as well. It reminded me of ourselves in Sec One, with the positions reversed and looking up in awe at the Sec Fours and even as I was glad that we did what our seniors did, were able to inspire the same level of admiration, simultaneously I was wondering, are all our successes defined by those of our predecessors? Or - would our own criteria for desirability be in the vicinity of all those behind us as well? Are there multiple ways to do this, or - just one?
My juniors are really cute :D And - pretty unlike us in Sec One, I think. They're more open and outgoing and easier to talk to as juniors, I believe. I enjoyed spending time with them today (: But I should generally do it when I'm high on caffeine; I think it makes for an easy conversation. (And doesn't that remind you of alcohol-induced confessions/conversations/sex - alright, maybe not for you.)
At Far East, I bought lemon sorbet from Mango Lingo. It was cool and it burned as well, and gosh, it was so good.
I wonder why my commitment to the production isn't flagging. I see - commitment most minutely for me as, when there's something I don't want to do, like, I really don't want to do it, but I - force myself to do it anyway, because I have to. I did this for my EYA notes, especially Bio and History, and I have done it multiple times for this production, when it was like, 2 am in the morning and I still had to submit something by the deadline. It's the personal feeling of accomplishment.
For example, right now I do not feel very committed because I should be sleeping now after an hour and a half of sleep last night, but I want to watch Supernatural, so I'm - struggling. IT'S LOADING, OKAY. (ARGH EPISODE 6 FINISHED LOADING) - okay I am not. Watching. It. ):
I HAVE BEEN MELLOW RECENTLY, I THINK. For most things.
(related to the link of the poetry slam video Nancy linked our class.)
Today was a good day, in most senses of the word. The most overwhelming event was the recovering of my library book, which - my feelings immediately felt lighter the moment I found it (on the class trays near the photocopier, oh dear). If you haven't lost a library book or even a wallet or something that you would really not want to lose before, you wouldn't know how it feels. It just weighs on your mind, and even if you're distracted by something immediate momentarily, your mind always goes back to it.
After that, rehearsals went exceedingly well. I had mocha in the morning to keep me awake during rehearsal, and it kicked it pretty fast. I started going a little nuts (LIKE I WAS ON CRACK, OR SOMETHING) after lunch, after I found my book and was probably giddy with relief and also high on caffeine (my batchmates are forbidding me from ever drinking coffee before rehearsals again) and there were great moments of hilarity.
Technically, we are better than we were yesterday. We might actually be able to do this in a week. I HAVEN'T ACTUALLY STARTED WORRYING ABOUT IT FALLING FLAT, OKAY? I HAVEN'T. I WILL. I WILL, I SWEAR. THE NIGHT. THE DAY BEFORE. I WILL PUKE. WHAT IS THIS. /freaks out.
(From one angle, there are flaws in the script, and from another, gaping loopholes AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT IT but from yet another angle, it's - acceptable BUT IS THAT WHAT I'M GOING FOR?)
I was thinking abut two things when I was walking to the bus stop after CCA today. I was contemplating how finding my lost library book instantly brightened my mood constantly, and I become alternately perky and maniacal after that, and it's - also given me the impetus to actually! commence my EE, which may imply that I have subconsciously not done it because of the book, or may also mean that I'm just using the lost library book as a retroactive excuse for my procrastination. I don't know. But would not-finding the book have meant a worse rehearsal? A worse EE? Would - not-losing the book in the first place mean a worse rehearsal (which might possibly affect all the subsequent rehearsals and then the production itself) but a better EE? Or - does it not matter at all?
Little links make up the chains that bind us.
Secondly, my batch is having a lot of fun during rehearsals. We are laughing as we have never laughed before, talking as we haven't (and oddly enough, when we aren't talking about production, we - don't really have a lot to say to each other, although a few of us were talking about boys and r/ships at Far East today) before, and we dissolve into fits of laughter frequently during the rehearsals. On a minor note, I can't help thinking that if only we had our usual schedule, if we were going up on the 27th and 28th of November instead, how much better and easier a time we would have - yet, I was noticing, the few juniors that sat through the rehearsals had a lot of fun as well. It reminded me of ourselves in Sec One, with the positions reversed and looking up in awe at the Sec Fours and even as I was glad that we did what our seniors did, were able to inspire the same level of admiration, simultaneously I was wondering, are all our successes defined by those of our predecessors? Or - would our own criteria for desirability be in the vicinity of all those behind us as well? Are there multiple ways to do this, or - just one?
My juniors are really cute :D And - pretty unlike us in Sec One, I think. They're more open and outgoing and easier to talk to as juniors, I believe. I enjoyed spending time with them today (: But I should generally do it when I'm high on caffeine; I think it makes for an easy conversation. (And doesn't that remind you of alcohol-induced confessions/conversations/sex - alright, maybe not for you.)
At Far East, I bought lemon sorbet from Mango Lingo. It was cool and it burned as well, and gosh, it was so good.
I wonder why my commitment to the production isn't flagging. I see - commitment most minutely for me as, when there's something I don't want to do, like, I really don't want to do it, but I - force myself to do it anyway, because I have to. I did this for my EYA notes, especially Bio and History, and I have done it multiple times for this production, when it was like, 2 am in the morning and I still had to submit something by the deadline. It's the personal feeling of accomplishment.
For example, right now I do not feel very committed because I should be sleeping now after an hour and a half of sleep last night, but I want to watch Supernatural, so I'm - struggling. IT'S LOADING, OKAY. (ARGH EPISODE 6 FINISHED LOADING) - okay I am not. Watching. It. ):
I HAVE BEEN MELLOW RECENTLY, I THINK. For most things.