Brief life update
I feel like i haven't updated on life generally so I am going to do so really briefly now. And then I'm just going to go to bed cause it's late and I am staying up doing nothing.
Things are looking up in general, in the world, I guess. The lives of some of my very closest friends have improved greatly and/or taken a turn for the better in the last month or so. This makes me quite pleased indeed. Rather than feeling pity and worry for these valued friends, I can now feel envy. Much much better. :-)
I am still enjoying the life of nothing-but-arashi. Sometimes it feels like a poison, sometimes it feels like the world is my rainbow and everyone else is unfortunately not able to see it. Except the other souls who do, of course. Most of my friends have been incredibly forgiving and accepting of my horrendous behavior since my rainbow conversion, and I appreciate it.
Japanese continues to be difficult but incrementally less so. I am currently really into Kanji.
I am losing some of my co-teachers, since the term is ending, and they move people around. Spring in Japan is a time of loss; I will talk about that more later.
I have the feeling my apartment is going to get tidy soon. Little bits of it have gotten tidy, just not most of it. I am ambitious; I want to eventually have a guest.
Japanese guys continue to be beautiful.
I feel better about things socially in general, since I realized that I am being a hermit and not a pariah.
I have been eating plenty of chocolate.
I have been trying to exercise/move/stretch more, and eat a little better. How well this works depends on the day, but overall it's been much better than, say, January. I feel optimistic towards April.
The rainy season is coming. I don't want to talk about how I feel about this. It's similar to the way I feel about my storage unit in the US; the mere thought brings on a panic, so I immediately start thinking about something unrelated.
All in all my complaints are still few. I am so lucky and blessed to be here in Japan and I spend most of my time doing whatever it is I want to do. Whether I am taking advantage of all I could be doing is just irrelevant. I do what I want and I couldn't possibly ask for more.
I'll write more later on the topics I didn't elaborate on.
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Things are looking up in general, in the world, I guess. The lives of some of my very closest friends have improved greatly and/or taken a turn for the better in the last month or so. This makes me quite pleased indeed. Rather than feeling pity and worry for these valued friends, I can now feel envy. Much much better. :-)
I am still enjoying the life of nothing-but-arashi. Sometimes it feels like a poison, sometimes it feels like the world is my rainbow and everyone else is unfortunately not able to see it. Except the other souls who do, of course. Most of my friends have been incredibly forgiving and accepting of my horrendous behavior since my rainbow conversion, and I appreciate it.
Japanese continues to be difficult but incrementally less so. I am currently really into Kanji.
I am losing some of my co-teachers, since the term is ending, and they move people around. Spring in Japan is a time of loss; I will talk about that more later.
I have the feeling my apartment is going to get tidy soon. Little bits of it have gotten tidy, just not most of it. I am ambitious; I want to eventually have a guest.
Japanese guys continue to be beautiful.
I feel better about things socially in general, since I realized that I am being a hermit and not a pariah.
I have been eating plenty of chocolate.
I have been trying to exercise/move/stretch more, and eat a little better. How well this works depends on the day, but overall it's been much better than, say, January. I feel optimistic towards April.
The rainy season is coming. I don't want to talk about how I feel about this. It's similar to the way I feel about my storage unit in the US; the mere thought brings on a panic, so I immediately start thinking about something unrelated.
All in all my complaints are still few. I am so lucky and blessed to be here in Japan and I spend most of my time doing whatever it is I want to do. Whether I am taking advantage of all I could be doing is just irrelevant. I do what I want and I couldn't possibly ask for more.
I'll write more later on the topics I didn't elaborate on.
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