I remember when I lost my mind...
So lately has been really fucked up. Not only has my GPA slipped drastically, but everything in my life for this new year has come up short or kicked me in the ass. January 13th my Great Grandma died, and so I had to go up there for a week and do the funeral thing which was the worst thing in the world having to say goodbye to her. Then a week and a half later my dad's Aunt Evelyn died. And that same week I had a fucking spin-out in which my suspension and tires got fucked up. So it's still fucked up because all I've been able to fix yet has been the front struts and the sealing around the rims. That's it. And whoever did the side for my driver's side tired didn't follow the line I drew on the strut knuckle for the alignment so that's all fucked up. It's making my car really touchy and being a bitch to me. Not only that, but everybody in the fucking world decides to bring their drama to me. Which is ok, I'm fine with that. But after I've had two fucking deaths in two weeks, and an accident, etc. It is NOT ok. On top of that, I haven't been able to go see my therapist for ANY of this until yesterday. And all I could talk about was everyone else's drama; I didn't have enough time to talk about what was bothering me and causing me mental anguish. Then last night, after therapy and fucking getting blown off, I got into the biggest fight with my mom and Harold (Sue's Boyfriend). Reason: my mom wants to have my open house at the fucking church, but in order for that to happen she's making me go to mass again. Fuck that. I told her no and why I won't and what it does to me and so on and so on. And this huge fight with two and a half people against one, it isn't fair. So I took a pill when I got home that made me relax so I could sleep.
Also, I've broken up with John, and gone back out with Justin, and then broke up with Justin again in the last two weeks. To be honest, I think that it's the best thing that i could have done at this point. However, I am very lonely, and I don't like being single. But I really don't need to be attached to anybody at this point. i need to figure shit out, and i've never been single for more than a week in the last two-two and a half years. So quite frankly, I'm ready to breathe on my own now. Don't you think?
Also, I've broken up with John, and gone back out with Justin, and then broke up with Justin again in the last two weeks. To be honest, I think that it's the best thing that i could have done at this point. However, I am very lonely, and I don't like being single. But I really don't need to be attached to anybody at this point. i need to figure shit out, and i've never been single for more than a week in the last two-two and a half years. So quite frankly, I'm ready to breathe on my own now. Don't you think?