Ain't nothing wrong, Ain't nothing right, and still I sit and lie awake all night....
So it's Christmas time again. I hate this season. I love the gifts and giving them but I just hate how this time makes me feel. Family is supposed to love each other and be there for each other this time of year, but I always seem to find myself alone or my back against the wall.
My therapist is having me do journals of when I have flashbacks. I was hoping to go to her with a blank one next friday but I'm already filling up the spaces with words of hurt. Doesn't help when you walk right into the middle of a fight and you just go sprawling back into the past and can't seem to find your way out to the present. It sucks.
This week is a short week at school. Yay for me. But that don't mean shit because of the fact that I have to go to work everyday anyway. I got my Christmas shopping done though so that's one less stresser gone, except for Darla. And I'm giving everyone at school their gifts tomorrow. Anjie's birthday was yesterday, and I gave her her birthday gift on Friday, but she's getting her christmas gift tomorrow too.
Other than all the drama inside my head. Nothing new.
"I won't wait so long
For you
Stop your messin around,
Better think of your future
Time to straighten right out or you'll wind up in jail"
My therapist is having me do journals of when I have flashbacks. I was hoping to go to her with a blank one next friday but I'm already filling up the spaces with words of hurt. Doesn't help when you walk right into the middle of a fight and you just go sprawling back into the past and can't seem to find your way out to the present. It sucks.
This week is a short week at school. Yay for me. But that don't mean shit because of the fact that I have to go to work everyday anyway. I got my Christmas shopping done though so that's one less stresser gone, except for Darla. And I'm giving everyone at school their gifts tomorrow. Anjie's birthday was yesterday, and I gave her her birthday gift on Friday, but she's getting her christmas gift tomorrow too.
Other than all the drama inside my head. Nothing new.
"I won't wait so long
For you
Stop your messin around,
Better think of your future
Time to straighten right out or you'll wind up in jail"