updationess
okay, so i figured that since this is summer and all i do is sit around on my ass all day anyway, i should write entries in this thing. (so maybe that sentence didnt quite make sense, and it was more of a run-on than i wanted it to be... but you know what i mean.. right?)
hmmm... eventfulness. hah not really. I feel sort of anti-social, and it doesnt really bother me. There was a party tonight and i didn't feel like going. whatever. maybe it's just a phase. hmm.. i had a job interview on sunday at victoria's secret.. and i have another one tomorrow at spherion. i need two jobs to pay the bills i will soon have, so i'm hoping to work my yellow ass off this summer.
Andy took me to try Indian food for the first time today... it was interesting... I don't hate it, but i wouldn't suggest it ever if someone were to ask for suggestions when dining out. It was .... weird. He likes it though, 'cause he's a spicy-holic... lol, he was almost sweating, it was silly.
i want to get my nails done. and i want to lose weight... about twenty pounds. I've gained so much this past year... i've gone from a size 4 to a 6 and none of my clothes fit, so i have to buy a completely new wardrobe... maybe thats why i dont want to go out anymore... i've lost confidence in my appearance. clothes just dont look good on me anymore, and god forbid they dont look good off either. Even my mom's said things to me about it... like "you've been getting fatter lately" yeah thanks for the encouragement mom.. you've done it all your life. Hah.. screw fattness, in it's cellulite ass. and you wonder why i havent had a desire to go swimming lately.
i'm talking to matt braver online right now. I need to rekindle that friendship.. he was a big part of my life, and i guess you can say i kinda miss it. we will see how this goes... if it does go anywhere.
i feel like i am incapable of being satisfied with current situations. Perhaps it is my incessant need for change because everything just seems so boring to me. I'm sick of the way things were... but if they changed to something else, i'd be sick of that too.
anyway.. i'm done with this updating crap.
peace out my dirties.
hmmm... eventfulness. hah not really. I feel sort of anti-social, and it doesnt really bother me. There was a party tonight and i didn't feel like going. whatever. maybe it's just a phase. hmm.. i had a job interview on sunday at victoria's secret.. and i have another one tomorrow at spherion. i need two jobs to pay the bills i will soon have, so i'm hoping to work my yellow ass off this summer.
Andy took me to try Indian food for the first time today... it was interesting... I don't hate it, but i wouldn't suggest it ever if someone were to ask for suggestions when dining out. It was .... weird. He likes it though, 'cause he's a spicy-holic... lol, he was almost sweating, it was silly.
i want to get my nails done. and i want to lose weight... about twenty pounds. I've gained so much this past year... i've gone from a size 4 to a 6 and none of my clothes fit, so i have to buy a completely new wardrobe... maybe thats why i dont want to go out anymore... i've lost confidence in my appearance. clothes just dont look good on me anymore, and god forbid they dont look good off either. Even my mom's said things to me about it... like "you've been getting fatter lately" yeah thanks for the encouragement mom.. you've done it all your life. Hah.. screw fattness, in it's cellulite ass. and you wonder why i havent had a desire to go swimming lately.
i'm talking to matt braver online right now. I need to rekindle that friendship.. he was a big part of my life, and i guess you can say i kinda miss it. we will see how this goes... if it does go anywhere.
i feel like i am incapable of being satisfied with current situations. Perhaps it is my incessant need for change because everything just seems so boring to me. I'm sick of the way things were... but if they changed to something else, i'd be sick of that too.
anyway.. i'm done with this updating crap.
peace out my dirties.