I want to runaway and no one knows it....
I feel so many things lately. i feel lost. and that scares me. I feel alone. i feel useless, like im a burden, disposable, pathetic,depressed, just a mess inside. i'm holding it together on the outside.but i honestly dont know how much longer i can take this. i dont feel like im walking in true love anymore. i feel like an obligation to care for sort of thing. i am alone. i am lost. i cant deal much longer.
i have no friends i can talk to talk to about things like this anymore. im so far from family and time is money so no time for long important talks before there's another client to tend to. smile and pretend your not broken inside, dont make anyone worry. that wouldn't be fair. hold it in til you break. NO! i dont want these feelings.
........just look into my eyes and see i've already begun to leave. stop me and notice im hurting inside....................notice im not alright and remember i am not good at asking for help...................if you notice any of these things, please be kind and understanding when i speak-dont judge me,or make me feel 3 inches smaller for feeling that way.....................
*i am alone in this part of life, and it's overwhelming*
i have no friends i can talk to talk to about things like this anymore. im so far from family and time is money so no time for long important talks before there's another client to tend to. smile and pretend your not broken inside, dont make anyone worry. that wouldn't be fair. hold it in til you break. NO! i dont want these feelings.
........just look into my eyes and see i've already begun to leave. stop me and notice im hurting inside....................notice im not alright and remember i am not good at asking for help...................if you notice any of these things, please be kind and understanding when i speak-dont judge me,or make me feel 3 inches smaller for feeling that way.....................
*i am alone in this part of life, and it's overwhelming*