Dearest Friends! My breakup.
A semi-unique post is upon us. I've never had to update a post before i've ever broken up with someone. To tell the truth it's admitting i've done wrong. I'm breaking up beacuse what i've done is irreconcileable with the present. That is, i've been so bad, that no matter what I do i can not break even or better with what i've done from now.
This is how you break up; you do something terrible and later you break up when they find out because you don't really try to cover your tracks anymore.
In my case it was that i didn't find my beautiful girlfriend sexually stimulating anymore. I'm sure others would cuss, maybe even curse my callous dissent towards her because her beauty is immesureable. However there is a dark side, a secret side that only I know of due to unique cirumstance and lust. This has learened me that somethings are never to be and so i break up my emotions into parts, define them, polarize them, dedicate the, reconcile them and most importantly cherish them as i place them away.
I say this with a heavy heart that cried as i came upon the realisation that the reality cannot exist with the present and that what i thought could be was misplaced with time and sliped through the gaps of what I wanted.
My life is sadly now alone, whether from the will of the greater gods or from the desire of the honesty of my own heart. What is is now and what is now is that I'm alone due to what I've done.
Dear future me; please write back your desire because this is not how i imagined my life to feel.
This is how you break up; you do something terrible and later you break up when they find out because you don't really try to cover your tracks anymore.
In my case it was that i didn't find my beautiful girlfriend sexually stimulating anymore. I'm sure others would cuss, maybe even curse my callous dissent towards her because her beauty is immesureable. However there is a dark side, a secret side that only I know of due to unique cirumstance and lust. This has learened me that somethings are never to be and so i break up my emotions into parts, define them, polarize them, dedicate the, reconcile them and most importantly cherish them as i place them away.
I say this with a heavy heart that cried as i came upon the realisation that the reality cannot exist with the present and that what i thought could be was misplaced with time and sliped through the gaps of what I wanted.
My life is sadly now alone, whether from the will of the greater gods or from the desire of the honesty of my own heart. What is is now and what is now is that I'm alone due to what I've done.
Dear future me; please write back your desire because this is not how i imagined my life to feel.