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okay, so i know i write about a new boy nearly every time, but that's only because i'm extremely indecisive about most boys, and i declare crushes on them too soon and get all twitterpated too fast. and more than half the time i look back and realize i wasn't nearly as infatuated with them as i thought i was.
so that said, i like someone new. haha.
and okay, allow me to explain: this time is slightly different. mostly because the guy is one of my greatest friends, and also because i think i liked him for at least a week, if not more, before i even admitted it to myself. and that's a new thing for me. usually i decided that i'm going to like someone before the feelings actually start. i realize how messed up that sounds.
so. the guy. his name is nelson. he's extremely sweet, albeit a huge nerd. and he's as inexperienced as me. he's so funny too. we've been friends for about two years, i'd say. but it was only this year when we had six out of eight classes together that we became close. we only have four classes together now, but still a lot of the time i'll be at my locker, and he'll be at his just a few lockers down, and he'll offer to walk me to my next class or something. it's so sweet.
and okay, you know when you just have that feeling? that feeling that something is going to happen and that the attraction is mutual? i get that feeling with him. we'll be play fighting and jokingly hitting each other, or we'll be trying to get things out of each others hands, and the touches will linger just slightly too long. and oh god, i enjoy touching him way too much. haha, i mean, just like, touching his arm as we're talking is like this big thrill. and it's weird, because i hardly ever touch people. i'm the person that when there are more than three people are on the couch scrunches up in this little ball because i'm afraid of touching other people. nelson makes me want to cuddle. more than anyone i've ever met before.
aw damn. my grandma just called and left a message that her eight or so month old beagle got hit by a car today and was killed. how is anyone supposed to deal with the kind of misery that i just heard in her voice?
so that said, i like someone new. haha.
and okay, allow me to explain: this time is slightly different. mostly because the guy is one of my greatest friends, and also because i think i liked him for at least a week, if not more, before i even admitted it to myself. and that's a new thing for me. usually i decided that i'm going to like someone before the feelings actually start. i realize how messed up that sounds.
so. the guy. his name is nelson. he's extremely sweet, albeit a huge nerd. and he's as inexperienced as me. he's so funny too. we've been friends for about two years, i'd say. but it was only this year when we had six out of eight classes together that we became close. we only have four classes together now, but still a lot of the time i'll be at my locker, and he'll be at his just a few lockers down, and he'll offer to walk me to my next class or something. it's so sweet.
and okay, you know when you just have that feeling? that feeling that something is going to happen and that the attraction is mutual? i get that feeling with him. we'll be play fighting and jokingly hitting each other, or we'll be trying to get things out of each others hands, and the touches will linger just slightly too long. and oh god, i enjoy touching him way too much. haha, i mean, just like, touching his arm as we're talking is like this big thrill. and it's weird, because i hardly ever touch people. i'm the person that when there are more than three people are on the couch scrunches up in this little ball because i'm afraid of touching other people. nelson makes me want to cuddle. more than anyone i've ever met before.
aw damn. my grandma just called and left a message that her eight or so month old beagle got hit by a car today and was killed. how is anyone supposed to deal with the kind of misery that i just heard in her voice?