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He dumped me.
It don't feel paniced. I don't feel desperate. I don't feel like I have nothing to do now.
I miss him. I really loved him, more than I had ever loved someone. I loved him for the right reasons. I really was convinced that he was perfect for me in every way and I for him. I was devastated when he drove away. I cried all that day. But I went to work in the evening. I woke up the next day. I got through it. And then I woke up this morning, reaching for him, and realizing he was really gone. And I miss him. And it hurts.
It's not the desperate teenage separation anxiety hurt. It's just a really deep sadness. I can't imagine loving anyone this much again. I know I will. But right now I am really very sad.
It don't feel paniced. I don't feel desperate. I don't feel like I have nothing to do now.
I miss him. I really loved him, more than I had ever loved someone. I loved him for the right reasons. I really was convinced that he was perfect for me in every way and I for him. I was devastated when he drove away. I cried all that day. But I went to work in the evening. I woke up the next day. I got through it. And then I woke up this morning, reaching for him, and realizing he was really gone. And I miss him. And it hurts.
It's not the desperate teenage separation anxiety hurt. It's just a really deep sadness. I can't imagine loving anyone this much again. I know I will. But right now I am really very sad.