On the Fence
Marcus applied for a sup position at work and I was on the fence about which way I wanted it to go. On the one hand, he welcomed working on something different and there was a pay jump...on the other, I feared it would cause him anxiety and make his schedule less flexible. So, really, I didn't want him to get it. Luckily, he was also on the fence so when he did not get the position, he was less upset than his coworkers. I can't help but feel a wee bit selfish for being relieved. We're buying a house that is in the same town as our current house. One of the big reasons for that is the proximity of the new house; it's 5 minutes from Marc's work! We want him to be able to come home for lunch several times per week and that would be less likely in the sup position. So, relief. And guilt.