October 21st
So it seems that every other time I end up posting on LJ, it's to say "been gone a while..." And yeah, this time is no different. Truth is, I've been pretty fucking busy running around and doing things. I even have a somewhat on the side, just a few evenings a week job now. I'm officially a tutor. I've been doing the job for like 3 weeks now, and it's actually quite awesome. Right now I'm tutoring these two 9th graders that are twins. They are actually very *very* well behaved and their family is extremely nice to me. I swear, every time I go there they try to get me to drink or eat something before I go--which is actually quite nice. It's definitely teaching me a lot about teaching. I'm learning things like: "how to organize 3 lessons within 80 minutes", "how to actually teach complicated material", and of course general "connecting with the students". I definitely get a kick out of doing this. I have other things in the works that I'm not yet talking about that are set up for next year, and if things go well (*crosses fingers*) then I'll be writing about that stuff at some point in the near, foreseeble future.
On the other hand, other life things have gotten complicated. Particularly---family. I'm stuck in a complicated situation that is leaving me feeling very confused about how to go about things. There's definitely an easy way and a hard way---or, rather, depending on how I look at the situation, either way can be easy or hard. What makes things that much more wonderful is the fact that I'm choosing to make the situation complicated because there are things I want that I don't want to compromise on. Either way, my current worries seem extremely great. I'm waiting for good news that will hopefully push me in some, better direction than the one I'm going in right now (which really is nowhere). Sometimes I simply wonder if it would be best if I joined some sort of organization and took off for like half a year or something. I know something has to give, something has to change, but I'm worrying now over what that something will be and how great the consequences will be. When I think about it all...I just feel so fucking frustrated and tired. But I suppose there's no use worrying about things that will either happen or not happen. Still, doesn't make my life easier at all.
On the other hand, other life things have gotten complicated. Particularly---family. I'm stuck in a complicated situation that is leaving me feeling very confused about how to go about things. There's definitely an easy way and a hard way---or, rather, depending on how I look at the situation, either way can be easy or hard. What makes things that much more wonderful is the fact that I'm choosing to make the situation complicated because there are things I want that I don't want to compromise on. Either way, my current worries seem extremely great. I'm waiting for good news that will hopefully push me in some, better direction than the one I'm going in right now (which really is nowhere). Sometimes I simply wonder if it would be best if I joined some sort of organization and took off for like half a year or something. I know something has to give, something has to change, but I'm worrying now over what that something will be and how great the consequences will be. When I think about it all...I just feel so fucking frustrated and tired. But I suppose there's no use worrying about things that will either happen or not happen. Still, doesn't make my life easier at all.