I'm just too tired
Last night, I had a bit of an epiphany. Not anything like curing a disease, or anything really important in the grand scheme of things. Mostly, I just decided I was tired of fighting. For years, I've been like a magnet, and I just don't want to try not to be drawn in anymore. In the scheme of things, happiness, even short lived, is worth the price to be paid later. Fighting nature is just.. impossible. That's the thing that struck me. Years, of trying to stay far enough from the fire not to be burned, when all I really want to do is lay in it and get warm a while. So. Fuck it. It's a bonfire.