I need more time!
I came back yesterday from Regionals in which we did not make it to state (whah) but we had a good time while we were there (woohoo)!
Then I found out on Friday that I'm going outta town this Tuesday for media tech! I'm not coming back till 2 AM on Sunday! From one bus trip to another! It's not so much that I mind going, but I'm gonna have so much makeup work! I'm not even sure where to start! AHHHHHH! Then I have to come back to Upward Bound the following Saturday to take my SATs! Holy shit, I'm not ready :o/
I hate it how people typecast. If you say one dumb thing, you're automatically thought of as slow or stupid! I think that in High School, kids deliberately compete with each other, making sarcastic remarks to make the other feel inferior. Most of these dipshits aren't half as smart as they think they are, but of course give out that image by being arrogant and sarcastic. I hope that unlike high school, college doesn't have such a hostile atmosphere and actually has genuine diversity! I'm getting bored and impatient with assholes who try to bring others down, many which are tools who can't seem to realize it.....
I feel like I don't know where my place is in this world.....Friends who I'm close to are starting to drift away into their own world, forgetting that I was there in the beginning..... There's this one girl, who had major problems, and I was there for when she had this breakdown over this person who would make her feel like shit. Now, she's fine, but she's been such a jerk to me! She can be so fucking blind and inconsiderate to the people that actually care for her! Another friend makes me feel like I can hardly talk to her, or else I'll annoy her...I don't know what I put up with so many people's shit! Sometimes I just want tell them all to fuck andthat I hope that what they've put me through comes right around and bites them in the ass!
There's something blocking me from personal success, but I can't figure out whether it's just me, or if there are things that I'm not letting go of.....or I probably know what the problem is, but I can't seem to break my own barrier!
Then I found out on Friday that I'm going outta town this Tuesday for media tech! I'm not coming back till 2 AM on Sunday! From one bus trip to another! It's not so much that I mind going, but I'm gonna have so much makeup work! I'm not even sure where to start! AHHHHHH! Then I have to come back to Upward Bound the following Saturday to take my SATs! Holy shit, I'm not ready :o/
I hate it how people typecast. If you say one dumb thing, you're automatically thought of as slow or stupid! I think that in High School, kids deliberately compete with each other, making sarcastic remarks to make the other feel inferior. Most of these dipshits aren't half as smart as they think they are, but of course give out that image by being arrogant and sarcastic. I hope that unlike high school, college doesn't have such a hostile atmosphere and actually has genuine diversity! I'm getting bored and impatient with assholes who try to bring others down, many which are tools who can't seem to realize it.....
I feel like I don't know where my place is in this world.....Friends who I'm close to are starting to drift away into their own world, forgetting that I was there in the beginning..... There's this one girl, who had major problems, and I was there for when she had this breakdown over this person who would make her feel like shit. Now, she's fine, but she's been such a jerk to me! She can be so fucking blind and inconsiderate to the people that actually care for her! Another friend makes me feel like I can hardly talk to her, or else I'll annoy her...I don't know what I put up with so many people's shit! Sometimes I just want tell them all to fuck andthat I hope that what they've put me through comes right around and bites them in the ass!
There's something blocking me from personal success, but I can't figure out whether it's just me, or if there are things that I'm not letting go of.....or I probably know what the problem is, but I can't seem to break my own barrier!