Adventures in babysitting...
OK.. gotta make this quickish... I'm at Scott's. On the recliner sits Brian and Brittney... in the jumparoo sits Joshua... yep.. ME.. watching three kids... lol. I slept on a princess bed last night! (twin sized matress with a cute canopy over it). Brittany woke me up at about 6:30am, and considering I didn't fall asleep til 4:30, I was surprisingly awake and alert(ish). So, I think Scott left at around 8 (give or take an hour) and I'll most likely have 'em til 6ish. then its on home to watch the lil brother. joy.
in other news...
Matt is leaving.. i dunno.. soonish. Either he left today, or he's leaving tomorrow, or he' leaving on the 18th... i can't remember for the life of me... I hope I get to say goodbye...
So.. hmm.. I keep thinking about my day i spent with jarrod. He's my escape from the world.
that reminds me...
When is it ok for "I love you"'s? not because I'm planning on jumpin on to that banwagon... last night on the phone i heard Scott say "i love you" to his girlfriend. And they haven't been together much longer than Jarrod and I (24 days as a "couple"- no, im not being all obsessive... i just decided to do the math thank you very much). So yeah... for them it hasnt even been two months i dont think.... besides "I love you is a very grey area... I mean, it seems if you say "i love you" to someone, they take it as "i'm in love with you" and that isnt right. So my question of the day is: WHEN IS "I LOVE YOU" OK? and WHAT DO PEOPLE REALLY MEAN WHEN THEY SAY IT?
dedications:
to no one in particular:
Alistair Davidson
The Blue Pill of Love
If I say I love you, would you care for me?
If I said I wanted you, would you make love to me?
You want to stay forever,
But will not give me now
You want to hear my promises
Don't hear the music's sequences
You want my ring, want everything
Tomorrow or next year.
If I say I love you, would you really hear?
If I said I wanted you, would you make love to me?
A thousand ways of showing love
And when I do, you drift away
To memories of men who came and went
You do not see the wonder of the now
The music of the wedding band
Or me.
If I say I love you, would you really hear?
If I said I wanted you, would you make love to me?
If I say I love you, would you love me too?
If I say I wanted you, will you remember me
if I say I wanted you in our history?
If I say I wanted you, will you remember me
if I say I wanted you in our history?
to Chris:
Hoobastank
"The Reason"
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
to matt:
My happy ending
Avril Lavigne
(describes our relationship pretty well)
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could beeeeee
chorus
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do,
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could beeeeee
chorus
You were everything, everything that I wanted, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending.
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh
and last but certainly not least, to jarrod:
I'll Be There For You Lyrics
by Moffatts
Saw you this morning, with that look in your eyes
I hate to see you looking like, you're lost and lonely
It isn't easy when you're all by yourself
Don't you worry, I hear you 'cause I know what it's like
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby
[Chorus:]
I'll be there for you
When you need sombody I'll be there for you
When you want someone who cares
When you're down and feeling blue I'll be there I'll be there for you
When you call me, I'll be there I wanna show you how good it will be
Never needed anyone the way I need you right now
You know you'll never be alone anymore
We can make it, together It's gonna be all right
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby
and:
exerpt from "iris" by goo goo dolls:
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Verse 2
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Chorus
also:
(another exerpt)
BSB as long as you love me:
(hopefully not taken in the literal love sense)
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me
Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be
ok other than that... I have a baby crawling around under my feet who needs a diaper change so I'm off... TTFN! ~Cass
in other news...
Matt is leaving.. i dunno.. soonish. Either he left today, or he's leaving tomorrow, or he' leaving on the 18th... i can't remember for the life of me... I hope I get to say goodbye...
So.. hmm.. I keep thinking about my day i spent with jarrod. He's my escape from the world.
that reminds me...
When is it ok for "I love you"'s? not because I'm planning on jumpin on to that banwagon... last night on the phone i heard Scott say "i love you" to his girlfriend. And they haven't been together much longer than Jarrod and I (24 days as a "couple"- no, im not being all obsessive... i just decided to do the math thank you very much). So yeah... for them it hasnt even been two months i dont think.... besides "I love you is a very grey area... I mean, it seems if you say "i love you" to someone, they take it as "i'm in love with you" and that isnt right. So my question of the day is: WHEN IS "I LOVE YOU" OK? and WHAT DO PEOPLE REALLY MEAN WHEN THEY SAY IT?
dedications:
to no one in particular:
Alistair Davidson
The Blue Pill of Love
If I say I love you, would you care for me?
If I said I wanted you, would you make love to me?
You want to stay forever,
But will not give me now
You want to hear my promises
Don't hear the music's sequences
You want my ring, want everything
Tomorrow or next year.
If I say I love you, would you really hear?
If I said I wanted you, would you make love to me?
A thousand ways of showing love
And when I do, you drift away
To memories of men who came and went
You do not see the wonder of the now
The music of the wedding band
Or me.
If I say I love you, would you really hear?
If I said I wanted you, would you make love to me?
If I say I love you, would you love me too?
If I say I wanted you, will you remember me
if I say I wanted you in our history?
If I say I wanted you, will you remember me
if I say I wanted you in our history?
to Chris:
Hoobastank
"The Reason"
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
to matt:
My happy ending
Avril Lavigne
(describes our relationship pretty well)
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could beeeeee
chorus
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do,
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could beeeeee
chorus
You were everything, everything that I wanted, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
He was everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending.
Oh Oh, Oh Oh
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh Oh Oh,Oh Oh, Ohhhhh
and last but certainly not least, to jarrod:
I'll Be There For You Lyrics
by Moffatts
Saw you this morning, with that look in your eyes
I hate to see you looking like, you're lost and lonely
It isn't easy when you're all by yourself
Don't you worry, I hear you 'cause I know what it's like
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby
[Chorus:]
I'll be there for you
When you need sombody I'll be there for you
When you want someone who cares
When you're down and feeling blue I'll be there I'll be there for you
When you call me, I'll be there I wanna show you how good it will be
Never needed anyone the way I need you right now
You know you'll never be alone anymore
We can make it, together It's gonna be all right
And if you look you'll find, I got you on my mind 'cause baby
and:
exerpt from "iris" by goo goo dolls:
And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Verse 2
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Chorus
also:
(another exerpt)
BSB as long as you love me:
(hopefully not taken in the literal love sense)
Don't care what is written in your history
As long as you're here with me
I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me
Who you are
Where you're from
Don't care what you did
As long as you love me
Every little thing that you have said and done
Feels like it's deep within me
Doesn't really matter if you're on the run
It seems like we're meant to be
ok other than that... I have a baby crawling around under my feet who needs a diaper change so I'm off... TTFN! ~Cass