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Everyday is an emotional rollercoaster, often a battle just to get through. A good day here is equal to an average, if that day at home. But the good days are getting slightly better and more frequent. Improvements are being made...I can tell. I don't cry all the time, and when I do, I don't always have a reason anymore. That doesn't make since but it does. I'm just crying to cry, because I feel so strongly and so much about so many things and that's the only way I can figure out how to express myself. I don't even think it's always a bad thing anymore.
London will be good. A break from Spanish will make me miss using it. Friends are the reason you make it through the days you don't think you can handle. And that's a two way street. If it's not...then it's not true friendship.
There are more travel plans coming up in the future and more visitors and I think it will be good. Today is halfway day - 75 days down, 75 to do. I can do this. I really and truly can. It's even going to be good.
I am so excited for this summer and for the fall and for everything. I'm going to go back to being motivated, busy and happy self - but with some more perspective, and it's going to be amazing and fantastic. I wanted this experience, I wanted to find out somethings about myself (what - I had NO clue) and I definitely have, although nothing I could have planned.
Breathe and everything is going to be alright. Just breathe.
Always. <3
London will be good. A break from Spanish will make me miss using it. Friends are the reason you make it through the days you don't think you can handle. And that's a two way street. If it's not...then it's not true friendship.
There are more travel plans coming up in the future and more visitors and I think it will be good. Today is halfway day - 75 days down, 75 to do. I can do this. I really and truly can. It's even going to be good.
I am so excited for this summer and for the fall and for everything. I'm going to go back to being motivated, busy and happy self - but with some more perspective, and it's going to be amazing and fantastic. I wanted this experience, I wanted to find out somethings about myself (what - I had NO clue) and I definitely have, although nothing I could have planned.
Breathe and everything is going to be alright. Just breathe.
Always. <3