losers and chairmen
iiiiiiiiiiii am the chairmen of the awards committee- yay! what i wanted!
its gonna look so good on a resume...
anyway
im sick and tired of only attracting LOSERS! all of them are losers in someway or another.
i wrote on my fb status (one of the last ones) that he was nothing but a still livin with his mama too scared to man up and branch out oh woe is me the whole world is against me cry cry cry unmotivated shit talkin salesmen LOSER. .... or something like that
so yeah- im pretty sick and tired of it. so instead of having higher standards in my men- bc lets face it, men have hardly evolved past cavemen. AND everyone i attrat has at least been funny or nice in someway or another... so thats good. i just hate it when women have all these impossibly high standards for men. so instead, im going to have higher standards for myself.
i am not going to drink
i am not going to smoke
im not even gonna go out.
i dont feel like it
i dont have money to do so!
i have too many other responsibilities ive got to take care of right now.
like sleep- comin at me as soon as i finish this
i think elena sleeps better when im here with her... awwwwwwwwww
in other news, i don thtink i can whack off anymore. i mean i can... and i can - what i call "mechancically cum" but its not the same as with a real person! so im just trying to abstain. i cant even fall asleep from it anymore :(
i have been doing kegal excerises tho! i think the older i get the easier it will be for me to cum (it seems to be happening- YAY!)
3 last things to say:
1- i deactivated my fb accounts (i dont want to spend time on them anymore! at least until april when i can show off pictures of my fashion show stuff hahah)
2-ive started doing p90x (the right way....) im on day 3 and its pretty much killing me already hahah! but hey, you gotta start somewhere, right?
3- im so PUMPED for looking good, feeling good, doing good, and then rewarding myself with going to london- woohoo!
this is not to say that i dont still miss kevin- i DO miss talking to him and laughing with him allll the time... but then i think about all the things that i didnt like about him/our relationship and realize that im not gonna sweat it. if it happens, it happens, if it doesnt it doesnt! annnnd its only gonna happen further on down the line if it does. i guess it all depends on the type of people we turn out to be.
alright this is long- night
its gonna look so good on a resume...
anyway
im sick and tired of only attracting LOSERS! all of them are losers in someway or another.
i wrote on my fb status (one of the last ones) that he was nothing but a still livin with his mama too scared to man up and branch out oh woe is me the whole world is against me cry cry cry unmotivated shit talkin salesmen LOSER. .... or something like that
so yeah- im pretty sick and tired of it. so instead of having higher standards in my men- bc lets face it, men have hardly evolved past cavemen. AND everyone i attrat has at least been funny or nice in someway or another... so thats good. i just hate it when women have all these impossibly high standards for men. so instead, im going to have higher standards for myself.
i am not going to drink
i am not going to smoke
im not even gonna go out.
i dont feel like it
i dont have money to do so!
i have too many other responsibilities ive got to take care of right now.
like sleep- comin at me as soon as i finish this
i think elena sleeps better when im here with her... awwwwwwwwww
in other news, i don thtink i can whack off anymore. i mean i can... and i can - what i call "mechancically cum" but its not the same as with a real person! so im just trying to abstain. i cant even fall asleep from it anymore :(
i have been doing kegal excerises tho! i think the older i get the easier it will be for me to cum (it seems to be happening- YAY!)
3 last things to say:
1- i deactivated my fb accounts (i dont want to spend time on them anymore! at least until april when i can show off pictures of my fashion show stuff hahah)
2-ive started doing p90x (the right way....) im on day 3 and its pretty much killing me already hahah! but hey, you gotta start somewhere, right?
3- im so PUMPED for looking good, feeling good, doing good, and then rewarding myself with going to london- woohoo!
this is not to say that i dont still miss kevin- i DO miss talking to him and laughing with him allll the time... but then i think about all the things that i didnt like about him/our relationship and realize that im not gonna sweat it. if it happens, it happens, if it doesnt it doesnt! annnnd its only gonna happen further on down the line if it does. i guess it all depends on the type of people we turn out to be.
alright this is long- night