heehee ... prehensile ... heehee
i still feel exhausted ...
but i slept 11 hours ...
but i still feel exhausted.
i wish i could sleep but somehow the stress of the nothing is keeping me awake.
That's right ... I'm doing nothing.
i don't know how it started.
and it's not like the six obligations in my life are "nothing" ... but they're not art.
ahh, art ...
somehow i'm producing 'no' art.
it's maddening and yet there is this air that one MUST produce PRODUCTIVE art. ahhh, as if i needed the whole world to feel like school. when the whole world feels like school there really is no feeling of free time. all free time feels like slacking and skipping. I feel like i'm failing life. my career report card is going to come back with a big red 'F' with a circle around it and a note that the teacher wants to talk to my parents.
*sigh* ::falls down backwards on bed::
I'm getting an 'A' on my romantic life *grin* ... my social life I'm struggling a bit but i think i can brag to a hard 'B-' ... I'm passing on economics but have an incomplete in home-ec. *shrug* yeah, i need my own internet and better cable. but then we're back to economics and to pass economics with flying colors i have to start getting better grades on my quadrupal major=life.
one of these days i'll figure out what's stopping me and then i'll kick it into gear and start going back to ... what? what is it called? *ponder*
who knew that being a two year college graduate with a degree would spin me so in circles with this feeling like i've been taught so much ...
and know nothing.
but i slept 11 hours ...
but i still feel exhausted.
i wish i could sleep but somehow the stress of the nothing is keeping me awake.
That's right ... I'm doing nothing.
i don't know how it started.
and it's not like the six obligations in my life are "nothing" ... but they're not art.
ahh, art ...
somehow i'm producing 'no' art.
it's maddening and yet there is this air that one MUST produce PRODUCTIVE art. ahhh, as if i needed the whole world to feel like school. when the whole world feels like school there really is no feeling of free time. all free time feels like slacking and skipping. I feel like i'm failing life. my career report card is going to come back with a big red 'F' with a circle around it and a note that the teacher wants to talk to my parents.
*sigh* ::falls down backwards on bed::
I'm getting an 'A' on my romantic life *grin* ... my social life I'm struggling a bit but i think i can brag to a hard 'B-' ... I'm passing on economics but have an incomplete in home-ec. *shrug* yeah, i need my own internet and better cable. but then we're back to economics and to pass economics with flying colors i have to start getting better grades on my quadrupal major=life.
one of these days i'll figure out what's stopping me and then i'll kick it into gear and start going back to ... what? what is it called? *ponder*
who knew that being a two year college graduate with a degree would spin me so in circles with this feeling like i've been taught so much ...
and know nothing.