Cause I'm So Beautiful...
I think the most valuable thing I have learned this year is that people will tell you that they care about you and perhaps even love you. They will say they are so glad that you two are friends. And a whole bunch of other bullshit. But you can't trust any of that, because underneath they are just deceitful assholes that will eventually break any and all trust you invest in them. The most tragic thing about all of this, is that although these words seem to drip with bitterness, I think I've actually come to terms with it. Knowing this doesn't mean that I won't ever care about anyone, because there are many, many people I do care about a lot; it just means that I understand the game now, and I can be deceitful as well. If anyone thinks they've gotten inside my skin to the core of my heart, they have no idea how far away they really are.
"They have no idea how much energy and exasperation I am willing to suck out of them... I will drain them and drown them until they know how little of me there is left even after I've taken everything they've got to give me because I hate them for not knowing".
"They have no idea how much energy and exasperation I am willing to suck out of them... I will drain them and drown them until they know how little of me there is left even after I've taken everything they've got to give me because I hate them for not knowing".