ugh ugh ugh
still in france. went to the beach today and did a lot of climbing on rocks. it was pretty fun but seeing as I'm so clumsy I get nervous in any situation in which a fall could lead to my death. I didn't die though, obviously.
my self worth is at an all-time low. I keep falling asleep and waking up at three or four in the morning and staying up for hours trying to find a single thing to like about myself. homeless kids think I'm too good for them...everyone else seems to think they're too good for me. it's hard to escape the feeling of rejection.
I miss homegirls so much. I miss homeboys too, but I don't want to think about that because illy is already seeing someone else and I have to prepare myself to start looking again as well when I get back (though it shouldn't be too hard, I suppose...at least I have my looks going for me, if nothing else.) obviously what we agreed on still holds true, we're still good friends even if we're not fucking. but damn am I gonna miss fucking that kid.
qsldkfjdslfj ramble ramble. I don't even know what to say anymore. my thoughts are so clear at those early hours of the morning but by the morning I have a headache, and it lasts all day. I suppose I should be excited, though? I'm about to go learn to water ski.
cheers.
my self worth is at an all-time low. I keep falling asleep and waking up at three or four in the morning and staying up for hours trying to find a single thing to like about myself. homeless kids think I'm too good for them...everyone else seems to think they're too good for me. it's hard to escape the feeling of rejection.
I miss homegirls so much. I miss homeboys too, but I don't want to think about that because illy is already seeing someone else and I have to prepare myself to start looking again as well when I get back (though it shouldn't be too hard, I suppose...at least I have my looks going for me, if nothing else.) obviously what we agreed on still holds true, we're still good friends even if we're not fucking. but damn am I gonna miss fucking that kid.
qsldkfjdslfj ramble ramble. I don't even know what to say anymore. my thoughts are so clear at those early hours of the morning but by the morning I have a headache, and it lasts all day. I suppose I should be excited, though? I'm about to go learn to water ski.
cheers.