AAAAAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!
I am feeling overwhelmed at the moment. I wish all there was to life was good times with friends, working on projects you love and NO DEADLINES. As it is, I need to come up with a topic for my long essay, put some serious work into my dissertation, find a dig to go on this summer and start looking into a job for next Fall. It all seems like so much that I feel too paralysed to work on any of it.
Sometimes I wish I could just throw in the towel and become a professional genealogist on my own time. I am so tired of being a student. I am tired of writing long, dry papers on subject that just don't catch my interest. Why can't it all be dirt and sun and bone and things glittering? Isn't that what archaeology is supposed to be? I have yet to see any dirt, and I have been at this for five years. This is so stupid!
I just want life to be like it was supposed to be when you were a kid thinking about what it would be like when you became grown up. Well, here I am and I still feel like a kid, only now I have all these expectations placed on me that I just don't feel capable of living up to right now. I have never felt so much like just giving up! You should go for the things you really want in life, and I have to wonder, is this the right path for me?
Sometimes I wish I could just throw in the towel and become a professional genealogist on my own time. I am so tired of being a student. I am tired of writing long, dry papers on subject that just don't catch my interest. Why can't it all be dirt and sun and bone and things glittering? Isn't that what archaeology is supposed to be? I have yet to see any dirt, and I have been at this for five years. This is so stupid!
I just want life to be like it was supposed to be when you were a kid thinking about what it would be like when you became grown up. Well, here I am and I still feel like a kid, only now I have all these expectations placed on me that I just don't feel capable of living up to right now. I have never felt so much like just giving up! You should go for the things you really want in life, and I have to wonder, is this the right path for me?