May I Have Your Sobe In A Can?

[skitzosuzie]

holy crap have i felt different :( I have felt like a completely different person this week, not myself at all. Im a complete wreck. It has been a long long week and it just started all I want to do is cry. I just want to be held and cry for a long long time and not have to explain myself. I just need to cry and have someone almost care. Maybe I cant be ice queen (as Kate so nicely puts it) anymore. Maybe its the show...maybe it has turned me into Jane. im so nervous and stressed out about it. Yesterday and today I could have cried all day long, this is so unlike me I never feel like that. And now I cant shake it. If someone says anything that really gets me Im gonna tweak out and scream and swear and end up crying historically i can see it now....and its not pretty. i don't know what my issue is, but I would like to get rid of it.

**I Need To:
chill out
learn lines better
talk to bennie
get ahold of myself
figure out what im taking next year
catch up on like a week of sleep
finish Sarah's book
find a dorky boy...

***EVERYONE NEEDS TO:
go see:
The Chronicles Of Jane, Book Seven.(Performed by BYT)
Thursday night, 7:00 PM
Brewer Middle School Auditorium.
*There is no singing and its short, less then 40 min.
(I sure hope it is less than 40)

so, I hope everyone comes to see it, and I hope I dont lose it before then. *sigh*
oh and I got called a ho a ton today, what the fuck?? oh i just want to be held...