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iono, i swear its so wierd, i have no idea how i survive. i swear that my life is perpetually falling apart, and i never seem to find a way to keep it in intact. i guess actually im still here because there are certain parts of my life that never faulter. my family, cousins. i love them so much. they are the only thing that has remained constant throughout all of my life. but everytime i try to do something or work at fixing something it either gets worse or something else falls apart. i guess im js never meant to be whole. im ok though cuz its js my reality and im used to it. im not writing this so others will feel bad for me. im js writing it cuz it is what it is. i have a few friends who have never left either actually. Emily i love you and thank you for always being there. and to my new friends at CSULB. you've been a great help. but really i guess my life is js to be ordinary, apparently im not meant to find someone who will show me how my life can be extraordinary. and if i find someone to. then that will be one of the greatest things every. but i just feel that that is not the case. oh well. im done ranting. and im done pissing others off. so ima js end this here. BYeZ!!!