things are proceding as planned.
i got my new meds, today.. hopefully they will be enough of a boost to get me out of my current funk. I feel like i almost need to totally start over, but i also think i am at a point where either everything will fall in to place here in the next few weeks or totally fall apart. I am hoping that the new meds will hepl me keep motivated enough to do the things i know i should be doing instead of putting up blockades of why i shouldn't do things. i started talking to some women on line through a "dating" site. it is totally scary, i feel so totally socially not adept. everyone i have dated so far in my life has come from a specific group of people i knew were definately interested in me. now i am on a whole new page, trying to find out if there is any interest.. I have been talking to a certian woman, but she is like 6 years younger than me and i am concerned that the more we talk the more i don't know what to do. i mean we have only talked online, and not a lot but i still feel like i don't know where to go with the conversations, i guess i'll just wait and see what happens, but i am totally nervous. i guess that doesn't sound like much of a plan but the rest of my life, except the relationship part, is going well.