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alena.. we need to get together.. we do.
nothing to new. tanners getting shots real soon, ughh.. not fun.
hes getting big about 17lbs alex keeps askin me to move into his moms.. ive been thinking about it..but i told myself that if i move anywhere it;ll be an appt that he gets because he need sto show he can take care of me.
so the airforce..optometry..thats the route im lookin at. and no i wont marry alex either if i do that. but im joininig if i cant get any of these bank jobs... i refuse to try and support my family working at a fast food place. i just refuse. im worth more than that you know.
ohh hey also im taking a road trip with alex and tanner in a few months. just across the u.s it;ll be fantastic!
i realize me and alex need to spend more time doing things togehter..we see each other a lot jut when im out its without him and when hes out its without me..so a road trip sounds amazing. and were celebrating valentines day fridayyy.. since thats our day togteher and he works tomorrow.. things with me and him have been so amazing.. we had a falling out.. i was done.. i told him i was done.. we were weird for a bit..then he had his..awakeing if you will..and came to me and told me how he felt and how he needed me and since then..its been great.
though he went out tonight..not that he does ever but he worries me with that. he doesnt drink to much these days and doesnt know his limits. ive been thinking a lot about an ex he used to date..jut cuz we went threw old pics..and there was one of him his mom that girl and his siter when he was like i dunno 17 18..and i remember when i first started dateing him well a few months into it.. she got a hol d of him and gave him his number i remember him being stoked to call her.. but once i told him to take her off his myspace..he did..and i dunno i just.. worry.. i dont ever wanna be someones 2nd choice.. i wanna be..that girl hes in love with yadamean.. and its weird im insecure about that......
lalallaa
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Comment Posted Successfullywoot woot tanner gets a hat! you owe me scarf that i really want!! i kinda would like a black and white one..and since its been over a year that adds another one to the list.. i would like a black and yellow one as wellll im going to put this is my post because..i want them that bad. =]::ahem:: patty.. yea.. thats to you. =] yea..i know i shouldnt.. i kep telling myself how much im worth..but then.. i still dont think alex see how much im worth. its weird ive been dwelling on this.. a while .. i want them to see what every happened before that they thought ws love..wasnt and what i can offer is true love if theyd let me and it was right you know let them see that whatever heartache the person they thought they loved caused them.. turned into a joyus thing because if it werent for the other persons faults then we'd never would have met.
anyway. im in the weirdest point of my life. we should talk when u come down. ive been yearning for some deep thinking time.
i.. love to drink tea.. hot and cold.. green or regular.. but i have been drinking soda more.. and i gained 7lbs. well it was 10 but i lost 3. hah. horrible.
nothing to new. tanners getting shots real soon, ughh.. not fun.
hes getting big about 17lbs alex keeps askin me to move into his moms.. ive been thinking about it..but i told myself that if i move anywhere it;ll be an appt that he gets because he need sto show he can take care of me.
so the airforce..optometry..thats the route im lookin at. and no i wont marry alex either if i do that. but im joininig if i cant get any of these bank jobs... i refuse to try and support my family working at a fast food place. i just refuse. im worth more than that you know.
ohh hey also im taking a road trip with alex and tanner in a few months. just across the u.s it;ll be fantastic!
i realize me and alex need to spend more time doing things togehter..we see each other a lot jut when im out its without him and when hes out its without me..so a road trip sounds amazing. and were celebrating valentines day fridayyy.. since thats our day togteher and he works tomorrow.. things with me and him have been so amazing.. we had a falling out.. i was done.. i told him i was done.. we were weird for a bit..then he had his..awakeing if you will..and came to me and told me how he felt and how he needed me and since then..its been great.
though he went out tonight..not that he does ever but he worries me with that. he doesnt drink to much these days and doesnt know his limits. ive been thinking a lot about an ex he used to date..jut cuz we went threw old pics..and there was one of him his mom that girl and his siter when he was like i dunno 17 18..and i remember when i first started dateing him well a few months into it.. she got a hol d of him and gave him his number i remember him being stoked to call her.. but once i told him to take her off his myspace..he did..and i dunno i just.. worry.. i dont ever wanna be someones 2nd choice.. i wanna be..that girl hes in love with yadamean.. and its weird im insecure about that......
lalallaa
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Comment Posted Successfullywoot woot tanner gets a hat! you owe me scarf that i really want!! i kinda would like a black and white one..and since its been over a year that adds another one to the list.. i would like a black and yellow one as wellll im going to put this is my post because..i want them that bad. =]::ahem:: patty.. yea.. thats to you. =] yea..i know i shouldnt.. i kep telling myself how much im worth..but then.. i still dont think alex see how much im worth. its weird ive been dwelling on this.. a while .. i want them to see what every happened before that they thought ws love..wasnt and what i can offer is true love if theyd let me and it was right you know let them see that whatever heartache the person they thought they loved caused them.. turned into a joyus thing because if it werent for the other persons faults then we'd never would have met.
anyway. im in the weirdest point of my life. we should talk when u come down. ive been yearning for some deep thinking time.
i.. love to drink tea.. hot and cold.. green or regular.. but i have been drinking soda more.. and i gained 7lbs. well it was 10 but i lost 3. hah. horrible.