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Everything is feeling so extremely aligned in life right now, today I talked with Cam about me moving to Abbotsford. It has been a lovely heart wrenching decision that finally came through as a yes, a big fat yes. So we spoke I let him know my intentions, my plan, my goals. It was lovely. So in two weeks I will be in Portland doing a doula/mentor course, then in Abby looking for a place. My dear friends are all playing shows that weekend and Joseph will have returned from India while I was in America. I am excited to see him. I am thrilled to be moving home. I am ever so excited and waiting in anticipation to find out if I am accepted to become a Kundalini dance facillitator. I am hoping that I can find the money to do that without having to sell my bus, cause I do love her dearly and would like to spend many more moons with her, in her, at festivals partying at her. Yes I do not want to sell her. I would like to be sewing a lot and putting my things on etsy. I would like to be creating a stock pile of goods to sell at the mission folk festival and at Diversity next summer. I am hoping to find a place for April and then a job in May once I get back from my training.
It has been a very huge week, huge and beautiful, I feel like I have come to a very loving place in my heart and found respect for Cameron again, for his life and choices. That feels very good.
I am transitioning to throat tonight. It is sore and I cannot sleep for the moon is so near full.
Last night I sat in bed setting my clear intentions for my meeting with Cam today and I was talking and praying and I said something about how it's been two brutal years and how I've come full circle since hawaii the first time. Then this clear CLEAR voice said to me, it's been two years exactly. and I opened my eyes and wondered if that was true and I questioned it then I thought well I can go find out easily enough so I got out my note book from back then and I found the email Cam had sent me, and there it was. Febuary 8, 2007. Two years to the day, and I am healed, today I went to Cam with strength, and freedom and wings and told him all this, everything I wanted to do and thanked him for such a blessing I have come so far and will continue to go and grow and I don't know how I would have gotten here if I hadn't of had to go through everything I have in the past two years. I even told him I threw my wedding ring in the ocean. I feel so amazing and blessed.
I am a very lucky woman, a very young woman and a very hopeful woman.
lucky stars and rowdy blessings
goodnight
It has been a very huge week, huge and beautiful, I feel like I have come to a very loving place in my heart and found respect for Cameron again, for his life and choices. That feels very good.
I am transitioning to throat tonight. It is sore and I cannot sleep for the moon is so near full.
Last night I sat in bed setting my clear intentions for my meeting with Cam today and I was talking and praying and I said something about how it's been two brutal years and how I've come full circle since hawaii the first time. Then this clear CLEAR voice said to me, it's been two years exactly. and I opened my eyes and wondered if that was true and I questioned it then I thought well I can go find out easily enough so I got out my note book from back then and I found the email Cam had sent me, and there it was. Febuary 8, 2007. Two years to the day, and I am healed, today I went to Cam with strength, and freedom and wings and told him all this, everything I wanted to do and thanked him for such a blessing I have come so far and will continue to go and grow and I don't know how I would have gotten here if I hadn't of had to go through everything I have in the past two years. I even told him I threw my wedding ring in the ocean. I feel so amazing and blessed.
I am a very lucky woman, a very young woman and a very hopeful woman.
lucky stars and rowdy blessings
goodnight