What a shitty mood.

[skeeps]

I hate how people's moods always have to intersect with other people's moods. I am not in the mood for anything but trying to make myself feel better, and I am being asked all of these damned questions from people. I need time to figure out my own damned life. I guess I'm just not good enough at that to deal with myself and others at the same time, even though many people that I am lucky enough to know can. Thank God for those people, they always help me out. I feel like shit though, because I know I owe it to these people to help them out when they are down, but I can't manage two lives at once like some of you can. Makes me feel awful knowing that they help me so much in that respect, and most of the time I cannot make it up to them. I wish people's mood changes would come up in a batting order. You always know what's coming up, so you can make a strategy to take it on. Unfortunately, that is part of life, and it is a very important skill to have: being able to help others and yourself at the same time. Wish I could do it too, so I didn't feel like shit after someone helps me try to figure something out. Thank you to all of you who have done this for me, I owe you a ton...just not right now. I need some time to think things over.
Peace