2006 can kiss my ass.....
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
well, it'll be a new year, anyway. i'll just have to wait and see about the happy part.
2006 was without a doubt the worst year of my life. most of you know why. for those who don't, wait until my biography comes out; authorized or unauthorized, i'll let you decide. i mean, it was so bad i didn't even feel like celebrating Christmas. me! the perpetual child! how fucked up is that? it was a perfectly shitty end to a perfectly shitty year.
that's not to say that every moment of 2006 was so excruciating that a second felt like a millennium. there were some good parts, too. like reconnecting with friends i hadn't talked to in far too long. which in all fairness was all my fault. i'm sorry. oh, and i got kicked in the shins. that won't mean anything to most of you, but to the right person it will.
i just hope that i never have to go through crap like that again. i know that these experiences will make me a stronger person, but the negative aspect is that right now i feel so weak. it would be so easy to just give up, but would it be worth it? i don't know.
why is it that the answers you need the most are always the hardest to come across? it's not like i'm asking for no good reason, if indeed my own sanity is a good enough reason. and i know that every cloud has a silver lining, but sometimes the clouds are pile so high and deep, and are so bleak and grey, that those linings become blurry and indistinct, or lost altogether. all i need is some clarity, some definite sign, that things are gonna be ok.
it's not like it's gonna be hard for 2007 to be better that last year. in fact, i've developed some very specific guidelines, mostly involving giant radioactive parrots and the end of the world, that would have to be met for that to be possible. and quite frankly, i don't see that happening.
but be warned, 2007: if you don't treat me or the people i care about well, there will be hell to pay. that's not a threat, that's a promise.
well, it'll be a new year, anyway. i'll just have to wait and see about the happy part.
2006 was without a doubt the worst year of my life. most of you know why. for those who don't, wait until my biography comes out; authorized or unauthorized, i'll let you decide. i mean, it was so bad i didn't even feel like celebrating Christmas. me! the perpetual child! how fucked up is that? it was a perfectly shitty end to a perfectly shitty year.
that's not to say that every moment of 2006 was so excruciating that a second felt like a millennium. there were some good parts, too. like reconnecting with friends i hadn't talked to in far too long. which in all fairness was all my fault. i'm sorry. oh, and i got kicked in the shins. that won't mean anything to most of you, but to the right person it will.
i just hope that i never have to go through crap like that again. i know that these experiences will make me a stronger person, but the negative aspect is that right now i feel so weak. it would be so easy to just give up, but would it be worth it? i don't know.
why is it that the answers you need the most are always the hardest to come across? it's not like i'm asking for no good reason, if indeed my own sanity is a good enough reason. and i know that every cloud has a silver lining, but sometimes the clouds are pile so high and deep, and are so bleak and grey, that those linings become blurry and indistinct, or lost altogether. all i need is some clarity, some definite sign, that things are gonna be ok.
it's not like it's gonna be hard for 2007 to be better that last year. in fact, i've developed some very specific guidelines, mostly involving giant radioactive parrots and the end of the world, that would have to be met for that to be possible. and quite frankly, i don't see that happening.
but be warned, 2007: if you don't treat me or the people i care about well, there will be hell to pay. that's not a threat, that's a promise.