omg.

[skarykitie]

wow.
i'm sorry, livejournal.
it has been too long.

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disappointing thus far.
i struggle not to rearrange every wall.
i am waiting for victoria
i don't know if i should bother.
for a brief point i was hopeful
i am back to bleak.

i hate my image
i want to change it.
i tire of damaging my hair
but i feel like i have to.

i am making a very decent amount of money
and i am very proud of myself.

stir fry.
mmmm.

i glimpsed the enemy today
from across the hall.

two days off?

i have 4 days and one hour of school left.
yesh.
and then i start my life.
and then i start my life?

the idea of marriage
and children
has been appealing lately.
i want to live in suburbia.
i want to make dinner
and go to hockey games
and pta meetings.
i want to settle.

in the past three days
i have only seen brief glimpses of my boyfriend
through heavy sleepy eyes.

i feel empty.