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[skaryjeff]

i am so worried about everything. i'm also so lonely, but at the same time i dont want to be around anyone. i wish i could find someone who could be here and keep me company with out feeling the need to fill the emptiness with idol chit chat. or if we did need to speak, someone that could show a genuine interest in the things that i have to say. i find myself listening more and talking less when i have conversations as of late. and when i do speak i find the other person simply waiting for their turn to speak as opposed to listening to what i have to say. i think that may be why i have been speaking less. i feel like if someone doesn't really want to hear what i have to say, why should i bother saying it.

tl;dr i need money, a stable place to live, and companionship that cares about what i have to say.