I don't understand the human heart
I was really starting to get over *. At least I thought I was. Out of sight, out of mind, and all that. There was never even a logical reason for me to like him in the first place. He's a nerdy science major from the West Coast, who comes from a rich family, and who grew up with the only person in the world that I can't talk with about marshmallow fluff without raising my voice. Not to mention, he's rude. And he isn't and never has been interested in me. He's made that painfully clear. I've never even had a real conversation with him. About anything. Even alone on a date with him I was only able to get superficial small talk out of him. So it's completely illogical right? So why won't my emotions listen to my mind?
And seeing negative qualities in him doesn't help. Maybe I need to really push him out of my mind? But when I try that it usually turns into me suppressing thoughts and feelings in unhealthy ways. It feels silly, childish, illogical, unreasonable to have strong feelings in this situation. And yet I do. If only I could figure out why. What is it about this boy that led to me falling for him?
In other news, my roommates and I have commenced a prank war with an apartment of boys in our ward. We're even forming "alliances" with other crafty ward members that we hope will be able to help us in our endeavors. The plan as of now is to "quarantine" their apartment and publish a list of why they've been quarantined, which will be published to the entire ward. Believe me. They deserve it.
Ok, also... We're getting a cat!! At least, we think we are, but so far the girl who's giving us the cat has been really flighty. Between the cat and the prank war, though, we can't let anyone else in our apartment from the ward.
And seeing negative qualities in him doesn't help. Maybe I need to really push him out of my mind? But when I try that it usually turns into me suppressing thoughts and feelings in unhealthy ways. It feels silly, childish, illogical, unreasonable to have strong feelings in this situation. And yet I do. If only I could figure out why. What is it about this boy that led to me falling for him?
In other news, my roommates and I have commenced a prank war with an apartment of boys in our ward. We're even forming "alliances" with other crafty ward members that we hope will be able to help us in our endeavors. The plan as of now is to "quarantine" their apartment and publish a list of why they've been quarantined, which will be published to the entire ward. Believe me. They deserve it.
Ok, also... We're getting a cat!! At least, we think we are, but so far the girl who's giving us the cat has been really flighty. Between the cat and the prank war, though, we can't let anyone else in our apartment from the ward.