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tonight was absolutely ridiculous. from steven destroying the tool orange county looking asshole from my school just because i didn't like him to christina beating she shit out of some jersey girl for giving her an attitude, even though it was totally kind of our friends' fault that the shit even started, there was a lot of agression in the air. and that's how it's been for the past month. every night that i'm out with christina we get into at least 10 really nasty arguments usually started by us for the most dismissibale of reasons. usually it's funny and it's always at least a little exciting but today when we were kicked out of opaline as the girl with chucks of her hair missing was bawling her eyes out i felt really bad. since when am i a bully? having the confidence that if anyone even looks at you weird you can get them killed mixed with a little (or a lot) of bit of alcohol will do that, it kind of makes you not give a fuck. and while some people manage to charmingly pull being an asshole off there are others on whom it just doesn't work; like me. granted, sometimes i'm nice to a fault and a few people have witnessed my bitch tantrums, but generally my disposition is very chill and friendly. i know that this new weird side of me has been collecting some hilarous stories and i also know that some find it very entertaining, thinking about it now i feel raher silly and immature about it. i'm just not like that and i love bushy and christina to death and don't want to see them get in trouble dumb shit. so i think tonight the fighting stops, at least temporarily (if i can help it).
YA HEARD?
YA HEARD?