calling all...
i'm alive and this time, im not going to disappear again. the last two years have been spent basically digging myself out from underneath six feet of frozen solid dirt. ironically, i came out pretty damn clean, in both senses.
no longer using, and at the end of my methadone maintenance, i cant imagine being anywhere else. (except for maybe a better apartment.) ive been in school for 10months learing french here in montreal and ive met a lot of great people. luckily for dora, ive met another group of great people at the dog park. feeling supported by people that i know arent judging me means the world to me, and ive never had that before. although id never blame my past misfortunes on anyone else, i wont deny that people in my past aided my demise pretty readily. and, in other words, ive forgiven you all because ive forgiven myself.
for the first time since i can remember, im happy to be alive, happy to be living and just plain happy. how many people can genuinely say that?
no longer using, and at the end of my methadone maintenance, i cant imagine being anywhere else. (except for maybe a better apartment.) ive been in school for 10months learing french here in montreal and ive met a lot of great people. luckily for dora, ive met another group of great people at the dog park. feeling supported by people that i know arent judging me means the world to me, and ive never had that before. although id never blame my past misfortunes on anyone else, i wont deny that people in my past aided my demise pretty readily. and, in other words, ive forgiven you all because ive forgiven myself.
for the first time since i can remember, im happy to be alive, happy to be living and just plain happy. how many people can genuinely say that?