Depressed.

[sk8_babez]

Ugh i dont know whats wrong with me today. i feel really depressed. it's prolly cuz im gonna miss zach more than anything in the world. I really hope he doesnt fuck around on me when im gone. If he does i dont know what i would do...prolly end up trying to kill myself again. god i really need to stop being so attached to him i mean he means everything to me. he's my whole life and if he does something to hurt me than there goes my life. cuz i mean it still hurts from the time that he hurt me before and its always gonna hurt. im never gonna be able to forgive and forget. well today i spent the whole day with zach cuz he slept over. and when he called his dad he said that he wasnt aloud to go out all week which did make me feel better but then i realized that i was being selfish and i want zach to have a good time with his friends so he doesnt think about me when im gone and has a good time. i know i'm gonna be thinking about him a lot when im in west virginia but i am gonna try to have a good time and since im gonna be with bridgette i know i wont have to try hard. I cleaned out my back-pack and put all my notes into a box...damn theres a lot of memories from this year. so much has happened and i think this year has really changed my life. in some ways for the better but in some ways bad. but i am happy with my life so i have nothing to complain about.
I LOVE ZACH FORVEVER!

ZaCh's GirL