friends...I was feeling melancholic, sad and reflective...fate staring me down...Jo was there.
joalrnz: ur on line?
sjoerdbergstra: yeah
joalrnz: just left u an offline about the movie
joalrnz: how is life anyway?
joalrnz: i hope cool
sjoerdbergstra: I was just gonna write a journal entry
joalrnz: and sorry if i am bothering u
joalrnz: i see, the end of the day and final thoughts
sjoerdbergstra: no, you could never bother me, I love hearing from you
sjoerdbergstra: yeah... makes me think of G... in a sad but "over" kinda way
joalrnz: the thing is I SHOULD ALWAYS ASK IF UR NOT BUSY before chatting
sjoerdbergstra: hmmm... maybe
joalrnz: so ur low..kinda?
joalrnz: maybe @asking?
sjoerdbergstra: yeah, not in a bad way, kinda calm
sjoerdbergstra: yeah
joalrnz: ok sorry r u free
sjoerdbergstra: I'm free
joalrnz: lol
sjoerdbergstra: I don't want to sleep
joalrnz: thanks god
joalrnz: why not
sjoerdbergstra: dunno, need to think, talk, something
joalrnz: it is late
sjoerdbergstra: something in my head that needs working out I think... it feels time for that, in that intuitive mystification type feeling that was freed in my through G
joalrnz: ur my boy_who_thinks_too_much, remember
sjoerdbergstra: lemme mystify you...
sjoerdbergstra: Achille's Pendulum
joalrnz: what?????
sjoerdbergstra: cool huh?
joalrnz: sjoerdie
joalrnz: ur jo is old
sjoerdbergstra: I have a story teller's soul
sjoerdbergstra: I made it up
sjoerdbergstra: lemme explain
joalrnz: plus dizzy (NOT drunk still)
sjoerdbergstra: 2 things combined: 1
joalrnz: explain
sjoerdbergstra: my heart, feels like a pendulum set to max speed, no slow pace for me, my soul protests, I get anxious
sjoerdbergstra: 2: uhm, some doctors believe that we all have a total amount of heartbeats, set at birth, when we run out, our heart stops.
sjoerdbergstra: ok, there's a 3
sjoerdbergstra: Achilles ( I think) made a deal with Gods, a choice. Either a long safe but uneventful life, or an exiting, epic, famous, but short life.
sjoerdbergstra: I feel like I NEED always action, exitement, quick heartbeat, adventure... am I making a deal with the Gods?
joalrnz: hmmm
joalrnz: worng concept
joalrnz: wrong
joalrnz: u CAN have always acton excitement, it is not true that u have a cell phoen card ur 'using'
joalrnz: sjoerdie
sjoerdbergstra: yeah?
joalrnz: GET anxious
joalrnz: that's who u r
sjoerdbergstra: I love you
joalrnz: all these thoughts and feelings
sjoerdbergstra: really, I thank the anything for you being in my life
sjoerdbergstra: but do go one plz
joalrnz: ???
joalrnz: excuse me??
sjoerdbergstra: what? I thank well, something, god, whatever for you being in my life
sjoerdbergstra: but do go on with what you were saying plz, your chain of thought
sjoerdbergstra: I am gratefull, that's what I meant to say, but I felt like I was interupting you in mid uhm, argument....
sjoerdbergstra: hello?
joalrnz: no
joalrnz: i just said it
joalrnz: like : u sjoerdie go on and don't worry
joalrnz: it hurts but it is life
joalrnz: and u have unmeasurable minutes, hours, years, ages
sjoerdbergstra: I dunno, you seem so right, what you say feels SO right.
joalrnz: of thoughts and feelings
joalrnz: coz i am old
sjoerdbergstra: lol, not old
joalrnz: lol
sjoerdbergstra: older
sjoerdbergstra: but not old
joalrnz: plus dead sexy
joalrnz: don't forget my c cup
sjoerdbergstra: no argument here
joalrnz: i KNOW
joalrnz: just teasing u
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz: sjoerd
sjoerdbergstra: yeah?
joalrnz: DON'T WORRY
joalrnz: i know it is hard
joalrnz: coz ur my guy who THINKS AND FEELS too much
joalrnz: so that's how it is
joalrnz: it will come back
joalrnz: with attacks of panic and depression
joalrnz: but just SOMETIMES
joalrnz: coz u will find NEW SENSE to life
joalrnz: and hopefully new love (I DO FUCKING WISH THAT FOR YA)
sjoerdbergstra: can I say something REALLY corny but that is just bursting out of my heart right now
joalrnz: lol
joalrnz: what is it
joalrnz: say it
sjoerdbergstra: brace yourself
joalrnz: why shouldn't we be corny FROM TIME TO TIME
joalrnz: ??
sjoerdbergstra: I must have done something very right to end up with a friend like you
joalrnz: lol
joalrnz: come on
joalrnz: was just ur fucking luck
joalrnz: u DIDN'T DESERVE it
joalrnz: sjoerd
joalrnz: hey man
sjoerdbergstra: yeah?
joalrnz: come on
joalrnz: it is just me
joalrnz: ur jo
joalrnz:
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz: lets virtually hug
joalrnz: if in was perfect i would stay all night
joalrnz: but i am not
joalrnz: i am JUST JO
sjoerdbergstra: lol
joalrnz: and i have to go
sjoerdbergstra: you are good enough
joalrnz: coz my pawel is waiting for me
sjoerdbergstra: believe me
joalrnz: am i
joalrnz: thanks
joalrnz: i hope he didn't fall asleep
joalrnz: sjoerd
joalrnz: honey
sjoerdbergstra: yeah?
joalrnz: sleep tight
sjoerdbergstra: sweet dreams Joanna
joalrnz: DON'T THINK TOO MUCH
joalrnz: not tonight
joalrnz: pls
joalrnz:
sjoerdbergstra: don't worry about me, really
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz: i will just a bit
sjoerdbergstra: I will be fine, tonight is a good night
joalrnz: will u be on messenger tomorow
sjoerdbergstra: no
joalrnz: k
joalrnz: email then
joalrnz: pls
joalrnz: k?
sjoerdbergstra: maybe early morning, but I will e-mail
joalrnz: pls do
joalrnz:
joalrnz: good night
sjoerdbergstra: p.s. how do you make that hug sign?
joalrnz: lol
joalrnz: won't tell ya
joalrnz: mandips secret
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz: how ironic
sjoerdbergstra: yeah
joalrnz: good night
joalrnz: he found it for me
sjoerdbergstra: good night Jo
joalrnz: so he said
joalrnz: good night
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz:
sjoerdbergstra: yeah
joalrnz: just left u an offline about the movie
joalrnz: how is life anyway?
joalrnz: i hope cool
sjoerdbergstra: I was just gonna write a journal entry
joalrnz: and sorry if i am bothering u
joalrnz: i see, the end of the day and final thoughts
sjoerdbergstra: no, you could never bother me, I love hearing from you
sjoerdbergstra: yeah... makes me think of G... in a sad but "over" kinda way
joalrnz: the thing is I SHOULD ALWAYS ASK IF UR NOT BUSY before chatting
sjoerdbergstra: hmmm... maybe
joalrnz: so ur low..kinda?
joalrnz: maybe @asking?
sjoerdbergstra: yeah, not in a bad way, kinda calm
sjoerdbergstra: yeah
joalrnz: ok sorry r u free
sjoerdbergstra: I'm free
joalrnz: lol
sjoerdbergstra: I don't want to sleep
joalrnz: thanks god
joalrnz: why not
sjoerdbergstra: dunno, need to think, talk, something
joalrnz: it is late
sjoerdbergstra: something in my head that needs working out I think... it feels time for that, in that intuitive mystification type feeling that was freed in my through G
joalrnz: ur my boy_who_thinks_too_much, remember
sjoerdbergstra: lemme mystify you...
sjoerdbergstra: Achille's Pendulum
joalrnz: what?????
sjoerdbergstra: cool huh?
joalrnz: sjoerdie
joalrnz: ur jo is old
sjoerdbergstra: I have a story teller's soul
sjoerdbergstra: I made it up
sjoerdbergstra: lemme explain
joalrnz: plus dizzy (NOT drunk still)
sjoerdbergstra: 2 things combined: 1
joalrnz: explain
sjoerdbergstra: my heart, feels like a pendulum set to max speed, no slow pace for me, my soul protests, I get anxious
sjoerdbergstra: 2: uhm, some doctors believe that we all have a total amount of heartbeats, set at birth, when we run out, our heart stops.
sjoerdbergstra: ok, there's a 3
sjoerdbergstra: Achilles ( I think) made a deal with Gods, a choice. Either a long safe but uneventful life, or an exiting, epic, famous, but short life.
sjoerdbergstra: I feel like I NEED always action, exitement, quick heartbeat, adventure... am I making a deal with the Gods?
joalrnz: hmmm
joalrnz: worng concept
joalrnz: wrong
joalrnz: u CAN have always acton excitement, it is not true that u have a cell phoen card ur 'using'
joalrnz: sjoerdie
sjoerdbergstra: yeah?
joalrnz: GET anxious
joalrnz: that's who u r
sjoerdbergstra: I love you
joalrnz: all these thoughts and feelings
sjoerdbergstra: really, I thank the anything for you being in my life
sjoerdbergstra: but do go one plz
joalrnz: ???
joalrnz: excuse me??
sjoerdbergstra: what? I thank well, something, god, whatever for you being in my life
sjoerdbergstra: but do go on with what you were saying plz, your chain of thought
sjoerdbergstra: I am gratefull, that's what I meant to say, but I felt like I was interupting you in mid uhm, argument....
sjoerdbergstra: hello?
joalrnz: no
joalrnz: i just said it
joalrnz: like : u sjoerdie go on and don't worry
joalrnz: it hurts but it is life
joalrnz: and u have unmeasurable minutes, hours, years, ages
sjoerdbergstra: I dunno, you seem so right, what you say feels SO right.
joalrnz: of thoughts and feelings
joalrnz: coz i am old
sjoerdbergstra: lol, not old
joalrnz: lol
sjoerdbergstra: older
sjoerdbergstra: but not old
joalrnz: plus dead sexy
joalrnz: don't forget my c cup
sjoerdbergstra: no argument here
joalrnz: i KNOW
joalrnz: just teasing u
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz: sjoerd
sjoerdbergstra: yeah?
joalrnz: DON'T WORRY
joalrnz: i know it is hard
joalrnz: coz ur my guy who THINKS AND FEELS too much
joalrnz: so that's how it is
joalrnz: it will come back
joalrnz: with attacks of panic and depression
joalrnz: but just SOMETIMES
joalrnz: coz u will find NEW SENSE to life
joalrnz: and hopefully new love (I DO FUCKING WISH THAT FOR YA)
sjoerdbergstra: can I say something REALLY corny but that is just bursting out of my heart right now
joalrnz: lol
joalrnz: what is it
joalrnz: say it
sjoerdbergstra: brace yourself
joalrnz: why shouldn't we be corny FROM TIME TO TIME
joalrnz: ??
sjoerdbergstra: I must have done something very right to end up with a friend like you
joalrnz: lol
joalrnz: come on
joalrnz: was just ur fucking luck
joalrnz: u DIDN'T DESERVE it
joalrnz: sjoerd
joalrnz: hey man
sjoerdbergstra: yeah?
joalrnz: come on
joalrnz: it is just me
joalrnz: ur jo
joalrnz:
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz: lets virtually hug
joalrnz: if in was perfect i would stay all night
joalrnz: but i am not
joalrnz: i am JUST JO
sjoerdbergstra: lol
joalrnz: and i have to go
sjoerdbergstra: you are good enough
joalrnz: coz my pawel is waiting for me
sjoerdbergstra: believe me
joalrnz: am i
joalrnz: thanks
joalrnz: i hope he didn't fall asleep
joalrnz: sjoerd
joalrnz: honey
sjoerdbergstra: yeah?
joalrnz: sleep tight
sjoerdbergstra: sweet dreams Joanna
joalrnz: DON'T THINK TOO MUCH
joalrnz: not tonight
joalrnz: pls
joalrnz:
sjoerdbergstra: don't worry about me, really
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz: i will just a bit
sjoerdbergstra: I will be fine, tonight is a good night
joalrnz: will u be on messenger tomorow
sjoerdbergstra: no
joalrnz: k
joalrnz: email then
joalrnz: pls
joalrnz: k?
sjoerdbergstra: maybe early morning, but I will e-mail
joalrnz: pls do
joalrnz:
joalrnz: good night
sjoerdbergstra: p.s. how do you make that hug sign?
joalrnz: lol
joalrnz: won't tell ya
joalrnz: mandips secret
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz: how ironic
sjoerdbergstra: yeah
joalrnz: good night
joalrnz: he found it for me
sjoerdbergstra: good night Jo
joalrnz: so he said
joalrnz: good night
sjoerdbergstra:
joalrnz: