How do I define passion?
So, LJ... It's been a while. I think everyone I know has left, rifht around the time of the Russian takeover. The moved to Dreamweaver or Facebook. My own life got... something. I guess I wasn't getting the attention I wanted, so I shifted, too.
But now I find myself in need of a quiet space to write in, where everything can stay together and I can access it virtually any time or place. As usual; this is perfect.
The path of my life has forks! I made them! And now I should prioritize them, that is to say, choose:
A. Go to Germany to try to become a veterinarian (need one more year as an ELF to afford it; backup if I can't so that would be C. or D., but just for a year)
B. Try for FSO, again
C. Continue teaching EFL overseas, indefinitely
D. Teach ESL stateside, indefinitely
C and D are basically out anyway, and A is basically the plan. The problem is really the insertion of B and how much emotional energy I invest in that.
So I got two kindle books on finding passion and changing careers to try to reassure myself. B is very tempting and always has been, byt is extremely tough and the sad reality is that I may just not be good enough for it. Sometimes it doeshurt to try. I feel like I might be in a better place to fail at it than I was twwlve years ago, the last time I tried and failed...
So anyway, this is my meditaion on how I define passion. I'm actually in class proctoring a pre-test right now so I'm going to go with: Passion is what drives/powers the discipline required to enforce the habits, humanely, that are the source of greatness. It's the umph that helps or makes us stick out the sucky bits. It consumes our displeasure, burns our discomfort, and our control over how we direct the energy that is now undiluted with doubt and dissatisfaction determines the qualoty of our life.
I think. Maybe. Time to check their tests...