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Ever since oct. 27 I cannot get kurt out of my head. I can't believe I kissed a guy at the halloween party!! How unlike me! oh well! I just went with it bc I was starting to have a crush on him and my friends told me he sorta had a crush on me...so why not? anyways, ever since then, Well...I've finally seen that I can have a life after matt. I mean, the weekend after the first kisses, I didn't think about him!! MAJOR break through for me! I don't know, I don't think Kurt is as hot as matt is and I don't know alot about him, but this feeling is so great. I know he's only 19, but that's only a number. Jaclyn told me dave told her Matt hasn't had anything with a girl since me. and just thurs Tyler told me Matt still "digs" me...so wow, if this is true, what a douche bag, seriously. it's not like im going to pursue matt or anything, but i kinda like knowing this and knowing I like Kurt.
then my birthday party!!!...he showed up late but I don't even care, he came and he was sooo cute. for the rest of the night I could not stop smiling, Mel Diaz told me I was soooo cute, and you know what? I was! we were together for the rest of the night and we kissed the whole time. I felt so good. now, I have no idea where he is or even where I am, but I don't care, to have these feelings for a guy again is just awesome to me. I'll never ever get over matt, but I know now I am capable of moving on and that works for me. I know Matt will always be in my heart and my mind, but I know there is room for someone else now. I should probably talk to kurt since i dont know where he is on anything. i just hope he's into more than kissing me at a party...
ahhhhh smile smile smile YAY ME!
Ever since oct. 27 I cannot get kurt out of my head. I can't believe I kissed a guy at the halloween party!! How unlike me! oh well! I just went with it bc I was starting to have a crush on him and my friends told me he sorta had a crush on me...so why not? anyways, ever since then, Well...I've finally seen that I can have a life after matt. I mean, the weekend after the first kisses, I didn't think about him!! MAJOR break through for me! I don't know, I don't think Kurt is as hot as matt is and I don't know alot about him, but this feeling is so great. I know he's only 19, but that's only a number. Jaclyn told me dave told her Matt hasn't had anything with a girl since me. and just thurs Tyler told me Matt still "digs" me...so wow, if this is true, what a douche bag, seriously. it's not like im going to pursue matt or anything, but i kinda like knowing this and knowing I like Kurt.
then my birthday party!!!...he showed up late but I don't even care, he came and he was sooo cute. for the rest of the night I could not stop smiling, Mel Diaz told me I was soooo cute, and you know what? I was! we were together for the rest of the night and we kissed the whole time. I felt so good. now, I have no idea where he is or even where I am, but I don't care, to have these feelings for a guy again is just awesome to me. I'll never ever get over matt, but I know now I am capable of moving on and that works for me. I know Matt will always be in my heart and my mind, but I know there is room for someone else now. I should probably talk to kurt since i dont know where he is on anything. i just hope he's into more than kissing me at a party...
ahhhhh smile smile smile YAY ME!