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i still love him. ugh. even when he's a jerk to me at a bar. am i a glutton for punishment or what? no one can ever tell me getting over the love of your life shouldnt take so long...try it and see what it feels like. my heart aches every time i see him. i guess now im just waiting for when life gives me something to make me happy again, i know i put up a good front, but im a mess inside. will i ever stop loving matt so much? and what is it that wont let it go? 4 1/2 years is a really long time to get over. and i am trying, trust me, but something about matt wont let me. love sucks.